numb and lost
Hi, I am new here and hope everyone is having a decent day.
I don't wish to get into all the grand details of what really triggered the numbness. However, a few years ago (yes it has been that long, almost 3yes now...) Some actions from my husband bit me really hard. So hard that I considered leaving. We have talked, apologies were made... life is supposed to move forward. Yet, for me. I have completely shut down. I can't seem to lock this one up this time. These actions caused me to do some major reflection of my life. I've come to realize just how alone I truly am. My entire life people have toyed with me, say one thing, yet actions prove another. I've never really has anyone I could call friend. No one to talk to.... Now, I don't even know how to be me anymore. I'm afraid to reach out, afraid to talk about emotions, not that I have anyone that cares. I knew I would be alone in this world eventually, I've accepted that... Yet, right now, I need help, I need someone to hear me. All I want to do anymore is cry and it's been like this for too long.. I want to move forward, this time, I don't know how.....