Looking for a daily accountability buddy - Marijuana
I'm still on the roller coaster. One day weed is an asset to my world and then next day it is a burden. I've tried to do this on my own, but I just can't seem to even make it a day. There's always an excuse... I can't sleep, I can't eat, I'm nauseaous, I need it to start my day... Ugh. What makes me even more pissed off at myself is that I'm a personal trainer and I pound it into my clients that they CAN change and together we work on will power. It's like every time I'm ready to quit, the weed is my friend. I'll smoke and be ridiculously productive, have amazing work outs and get shit done and handled. Other days, it makes me sleepy, hungry and unmotivated. It's been years now. Years that I've been saying I want to quit and I am ashamed. Having it completely removed from the house is not an option as another person living here smokes and is unwilling to quit, I mean, it's their life, not mine, I can't ask them to anyways.
So, I'm looking for a buddy. Someone who will sign on with me every day! Maybe someone who can be there when I want to smoke and need some help fighting the urge. I gotta try something new because doing this along is not working and we all know the definition of insanity right... doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
A little background about me for my potential new friend.. I'm a female, 27 and I've been smoking weed since I was 17. The first half, it was only here and there. Since I've been living with my boyfriend (4 years) it's been an every day, all day thing. We smoke first thing in the morning, all throughout the day, before we go to any event, we need it to sleep.. that's why i'm still awake lol. It's 11:40 pm my time and I'm normally falling asleep by 8:00. I was thinking of just trying cold turkey... but am I about to be awake all night right now!?!?! Dang.