Pretending I am ok

@Justmekoo

Have you checked out any of the crisis resources? I should probably start by suggesting you do so. A forum isn't really adequate for a crisis situation. And it sounds like you're in one now.

But I've been where you are. And I always hated being passed on to the next person, like no one actually wanted to be with me while I was having this experience. So I'm here with you. I hear that you're not okay. It's exhausting to pretend, isn't it? And it only adds another emotional burden. I can't hold you while you cry, but I would if I could. And maybe you can let yourself cry anyway. It's very cathartic, I've found.

So you could tell me about what's going on. Or there are the Listeners. Or a crisis hotline. What do you think would help most?

Hi @Justmekoo...

I am really sad that you have made three attempts to end your life and are currently considering suicide. I am actually quite concerned about this to be honest and I would like to gently remind you how important it is to reach out for help if you find yourself with increasing thoughts of this type. I am saying this with the greatest compassion and understanding, as I have also found myself in that very same dark place.

Here you can find a list of crisis resources: https://help.7cups.com/hc/en-us/articles/360026242193-Crisis-Resources

On this site we are not trained for this kind of situations and therefore we would be unable to offer you the proper emotional support required on a crisis. If that is indeed the case, please log out and reach out for the appropriate help you deserve <3

I want to say I am proud of you for writing here. Sharing your feelings and thoughts is an incredibly brave step. I also want to say that it is absolutely ok not to feel ok. I think you totally deserve to scream it out loud. Sometimes I do that, on my own. I just scream. At home, or in the car. I wonder if it is something that may also help you.

I am also here to listen to you and offer you the tightest virtual hug possible. You can vent as much as you want. Your feelings and thoughts are valid and they certainly deserve to be heard <3

I know how it feels to be turned away, to keep things inside and feel like no one understands or really even cares. If I were with you, I would hold you close and let you cry and cry. Sometimes thats just all you want, isnt it? Please dont let this deter you from reaching out for help. Keep trying. The fear of being misunderstood or turned away can make reaching out get scarier every time. But there is someone out there who can truly help you, who truly cares. Professionals are tricky sometimes, but there are loads out there and there are loads that actually help.

7cups may not be the best place for you right now. This seems like a crisis situation to me. You need a trained professionals help to get out. Im very hopeful that youll reach out to one, PLEASE get the help you need. The world would lose a beautiful person. And please dont cut, it doesnt make things better. It makes things worse. You will only be digging yourself a deeper hole.

For now, I would like to remind you:

You are loved. You are important. You are strong. You can make it through this. I have faith in you. Pain DOES end. Things WILL get better. But ONLY if you get help.

Im proud of you for asking us for help. That takes an assload of courage.

I have been doing better these past 2 days. I would like to thank everyone who has supported me through this difficult moment / situation ( i am not sure what to call it). For all the positivity and support.♥️ Every single word is very much appreciated and I am looking to get help soon. I now start my day by jogging, helps me get up from bed instead of just staring at the ceiling feeling sorry for myself. I just wanted to thank everyone who took time to make me feel better even a little bit. 😁🤗 I hope I never feel that way again. And hopefully I won't. 😅