Support/reassurance needed

Hi @therapyneeded, so sorry you’re going through this! I definitely relate to your post, and I just wanted to share with you what a game changer working out is for me. I understand that it doesn’t work for everyone and it can be really hard to find the motivation 。But it’s helped me a lot , by giving me a chance to get away from stressful life at home, and it gives me something (painful) that I can control and helps me put my feelings into physical movement. I really hope you feel better, and no pressure or guilt if this doesn’t work for you. *so much love and cookies

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@therapyneeded you are so freaking valid and I’m so proud of you for staying strong. We’re all here for you!! Hit me up if you ever need anything 😊

@TherapyNeeded2022

It's completely understandable to hate it when people talk about SH and Sui without thinking about other people's past, it's very inconsiderate and disrespectful. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with SH relapse, and it must have been so triggering to hear about people using those terms and discussing those topics so carelessly. It's valid to want to curl up in a ball and cry, you're going through a lot. It must be so difficult to have to "stay strong" for the little ones in your life, you deserve to be able to express however you feel.

Oh my gosh, it sounds like you're going through so much. I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm here for you. It's completely understandable to wish it would all stop, I hear your pain. I wish I could make it better for you. I can't, but just know that I care and that I'm here for you. You don't deserve to be under this much pressure. It's not fair, I'm sorry.

I really, deeply understand how terrible it feels to be so alone in your struggles. I'm sorry that this is happening, you deserve all the support in the world.

I'm here for you, friend. I can't promise that everything will always be okay, but I can promise that you don't have to face all of this alone.

Thank you to both of you who have responded.

Your words mean a lot to me each in their own way. Sorry I don’t really have much capacity to respond properly (due to my own disabilities adding to my situation) but I appreciate it. Thank you.

Ok, this isn’t totally related to my original post but I don’t want to create a new one.

New trigger warnings though: SH, Sui, mental health hospitals, A&E, parents generally doing messed up things.

I just need to rant/vent about some things my parents do and have done to me in the past before I go completely mad as they keep bringing things up.

It’s basically some messed up things my parents have done/said to me about mental health.

Now I’m older, they always say how I should be honest with them about everything including anything to do with mental health and I thought that after going through everything with Ethan, they would have got better but I couldn’t be more wrong really. Since then, they have basically said things like “don’t ever do that” when it comes to things like trying to end everything or self harm. Which in itself isn’t great but they have made sure to make a point of something they used to do to me when I was 11 which I used to block out as best I could even though it was always in my mind but they make sure I don’t forget it at the moment.

Basically for quite a while when I was around 11 (I just say 11 as it’s easier), I was going through what at the time seemed like an impossible situation to be in (looking back it doesn’t seem so bad but to 11 year old me it was). At that point I was a lot and I mean a lot more honest with my parents (perhaps a bit too honest). I had a lot of bad thought but would actually tell my parents exactly what they were and how I planned it each time and everything like that. I never actually did anything back then but each time they would drive me to our local mental health hospital and basically say things like if you ever do anything like that you’ll end up here, same for similar thing at A&E to get to the mental hospital. To this day I will never forget that drive every single time I told them anything.

I no longer trust adults in my life much at all especially my family in particular my parents.

@TherapyNeeded2022

Sorry I didn’t tag you @Fluffysheep8

By the way my cousin is referred to as Ethan in this post.

@TherapyNeeded2022

Oh my gosh, that all sounds so horrible. I'm so sorry you had to go through that. You aren't alone in this, I'm here for you and I care about you a lot. I see you and I hear your pain, you aren't alone, I'm so sorry things are like this. It must be painful beyond words.