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SweetBeeHoney
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts1,147 Forum posts38 Forum upvotes32 Current upvotes32 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2024 Member sinceJune 20, 2022
Bio

About our system so far and how to know who is fronting along with their ages, although there may be times we aren’t sure.

Important note: there are more alters in our system but these are the only ones who use the site currently.

Honey (19) - đź’ś

Tia (19) - đź–¤

Angel (8/9) - đź’™





Recent forum posts
I don’t know what to call this… TWs included
Poetry / by SweetBeeHoney
Last post
August 14th
...See more I don’t usually share my poems outside a few people I know so here goes nothing I guess. Please, if you have nothing nice to say, keep it to yourself.  TWs - self harm, eating disorders, abuse. I think that’s it.  People say they care People say you can trust them  People say they won’t leave  Is that really true? Ask me that a year ago The answer is definitely nope Ask me that 6 months ago Maybe the answer was yep Ask me now  The answer is probably nope So what’s changed you may ask Things have never been easy Never been simple  Growing up, home wasn’t ideal Shouting, swearing, physically hurting Threats and just the emotional toll of it all That was my life for years  Then it stopped, relief  But in reality, more of a pause A year later, everything came back  I still am in this situation That’s enough to deal with, right? Nope apparently not  People come along  “Friends”, who knows really  Start sharing things  Start trusting them  Start to look forward to talking  All comes crashing back down  Leaving one way or another  Left alone again Numb, scared, stuck  Turning to the one thing I know  Masking the pain I’m in One way or another  Restricting food intake or self harming Neither great but needing a way out A means of control Not knowing another way Feeling guilty  On top of the original feelings as well And so the cycle repeats  Over and over  Finding this site was meant to be helpful Someone to talk to at least A way out of this cycle How wrong could I be Listeners here are rarely helpful and supportive Any that are always end up leaving too Or just giving up on you Things are meant to be fixed apparently Progress is meant to be made  But what progress can be made When you are still stuck how you are  I don’t even know why I’m sharing this I guess from a little hope I still have But maybe I shouldn’t be on this site  Good listeners are hard to come by for long And I can’t keep trusting new people 
Support/reassurance needed
Self-Harm Recovery / by SweetBeeHoney
Last post
June 12th, 2023
...See more @Fluffysheep8 - tagging you in this as you have given me so much support before (you have read some of this before but just wanted anyone reading this to have some more context. Trigger warnings: SH, Sui, family issues I am not in crisis by the way so please don’t take this as I am. I just hate it when people bring up topics like SH and Sui without thinking about other people’s past. Like recently I relapsed with SH but no one in real life knows, so they talk about it without any thought at all. Hearing about the triggers given in the warning above make me want to curl up in a corner and cry but I can’t I have to be strong for my younger brother and cousin. I just wish everything and everyone would just stop for a day, just one day is all I want, just a break from everything. People think I’m crazy when I say I look forward to school but it’s better than home at the moment. My house is literally like you’re walking on egg shells. My cousin is often trying to commit suicide or harm himself in other ways if anything and I mean anything upsets or annoys him and my parents are at breaking point themselves. I have really important exams in a couple of months which determine whether I can stay in education or not but I can’t concentrate at home or in school due to everything going on. I can’t even talk about this with anyone in real life - my parents don’t like talking to me about it, friends get triggered and teachers have to report it (have already been down that route). If anyone has any advice on how to cope or even just reassurance or support, I would really appreciate it.
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