it’s getting bad again
I’m starting to feel like I haven’t in a while. The depression is back, and with depression comes the urges to relapse. I know that I really shouldn’t, but sometimes I feel like it’s the only option that would help. I’m just so tired of all of this, and I don’t know what to do anymore. I know that if I do give in, nothing good will come out of it and then I will be very upset with myself for relapsing in the first place. My depression always makes me want to just feel something, because every time my mental health start deteriorating, I want to again. I’ve been clean for about half of a year, and I really don’t want to relapse, but I just don’t know what to do anymore.
@rainyday768I'm sorry that you're relapsing. It's really tough when that happens. Is there something you can do that you like to reframe your mind when it comes on? Watch a funny movie, go for a hike, etc?
It's hard when there's urges after so long still. Even with all the logic it's hard. I'm sorry you're struggling right now.
@rainyday768
I feel for you. Remember you are not alone. I am right with you. Hopefully we can support each other.
@rainyday768
im so sorry to hear that your depression is getting bad again and that it’s causing you to want to relapse. I really hope that you choose to put your recovery first and don’t choose to call back into your old behaviors.
What are some things that helped you to stop a year and a half ago? What have you gained as a result of not practicing your old behaviors?
Kristy