Things I want to tell you...

You were my first love. You were my best friend in the world. I understand why we had to break up, but why did you do those things to me after? You were my world. The way you used to send me kisses every night, and were patient when I was reserved. You respected my wish to wait til marriage. You wrote me poems and made me smile and gave me gum when I was stressed because you knew I needed it. You cried when you saw my first panic attack (which made it worse but it showed you cared. You were as smooth as crunchy peanut butter ;) And I am so lucky that my first love was you, even if I turned out not to be yours

Things were going so well, you were my world and I was yours

Things maybe had to end when they did for us both to deal with issues in our lives but I still held out hope that it would all work out

I did so much for you even after the breakup. Not only because I wanted you back but because I loved you unconditionally, even after you broke my heart

For you to lie to me over the next month and lead me on just to say you were dating someone else crushed me, my heart wasn't just broken, it was shattered

But even through all the pain, I still love you, I still miss you and for some reason I still have faith that one day you'll realise your mistake and come back to me

Im living a nightmare that I fear will never end