Letting things go
I’m honestly not sure if this is the right place to put this but I need to say it somewhere
So basically me and my sister were participating in an activity and we were supposed to all move around and one, do the same things as one, and speak as one, but it was not going well and at some point the director of this activity told everybody to just stop because it wasn’t working at all well during this time everyone started talking all at once and we were in close proximity and the director had just said to be quiet so I yelled at everyone to just shut up (which was definitely not ths thing to do in the situation) and my sister turned and slapped me in front of all these people -I should mention we are a strange pair people always comment on how well we gay along and it’s true we never fought- which shocked me so much I went completely nonverbal for the rest of the activity, which is weird for me because I’m a very loud person, what made it worse was no one noticed. I was there completely silent balled up in the corner and the only person who even noticed me there was a younger friend who asked to borrow my phone.
now this whole event wouldn’t be so bad if not for something that happened months later, I was talking to one of our mutual friends with my sister when I offhanded mentioned the event and she said “What do you mean, I have never slapped you. That didn’t happen.” It messed with me so bad that it was constantly on my mind and led to several breakdowns at seemingly random times for over a year and a half. I tried talking to her about if again but she swears she can’t remember and I know it doesn’t matter to her but it’s tearing me apart inside,