Here goes nothing.
So, I'm the clingy type. I'm the type that will dote after who I am in love with, and get anxious when I get no response. I start with that from the get go, so people know what they're getting in to and have the option to back out before I fall in love with them (or usually more in love). Me and my current girlfriend have been going out for 9 months as of today, and have known each other for 2+ years. As of this moment, she is completely ignoring me. And I mean, I've seen her being active on social media and on her whatsapp and such (we are long distance, shes in brazil and I'm uk based) but still I've heard nothing from her since we had a somewhat argument yesterday. I'll admit, I was the one that initiated it.
It started off with an argument between me and my dad. My dad is the main agitator. This is also nothing new. He knows exactly what buttons to press to set me off in another depressive episode or set off a panic attack, or make me so angry I punch a brick wall, but that's beside the point. One of my coping mechanisms is dark humour. That's the way I deal with things, because if I take it too seriously I can't handle the stress of my own declining mental health. Sure, saying I wasnt wearing a seatbelt in hopes that I die isn't the best thing to say to your girlfriend, but I was upset and frustrated and it was what I felt. She didn't find this funny, and I can't blame her.
I apologised almost immediately for this, sent a 'love you' only to get ignored. cont.