Im tired of being alone

I am 27 years old and still a virgin, I never had my first kiss, never held another girls hand, never felt the love and affection of another human being. In high school and middle school girls didn't like me because I was that guy that all the girls thought I was "disgusting" and the mention of my name was met with "ewww" remarks. I was and never have been "that cute guy" that women gossip about, no one other than my mother has said I am handsome, I don't feel handsome because I don't look like what women find attractive (this statement is not sexist in any way shape or form).

When women find a guy attractive she flirts with him and has long conversations with him but I never get treated like that (I am not saying I am entitled), I never get any kind of positive attention from women, sure I can talk to women but it never leads to anything past being "just friends" in my experience. I feel as though I am not being given a chance and I am being judged based on my appearance, looks and race.

Yes I am Indian a race hated by most if not all women due to negative stereotypes and a negative perception based on "bad experience", for example a very common complaint is that Indian men go on social media apps like facebook and send random women innapropriate messages. A rational human being would say in response to this that some people behave badly online whilst an irrational person would say "omagerd whats up with all these Indian guys sending me creepy messages". Such behavior is wrong and unacceptable however it is also unacceptable to blame an entire race for the actions of a few it doesn't solve anything nor will it stop those men from behaving badly towards women online and such behaviour is not exclusive to "Indian" men, men or people of all races can be guilty of harassing people online. Therefore it is a people problem not a race problem.