simple statement of a complicated problem
in a nutshell I either open up take a chance and get exploited and misled or a woman I'm with feels untrusted and irritated by my inability to say things that I am not yet sure about.
very complicated situation but it seems always to be the case. I can say so much more but it really does always be one of those too when I start a new relationship. either I choose to believe in the person and and they are not genuine or I choose to take it slowly and my judgment and they find it insulting or don't understand it in some way that is unacceptable to them. Yes the simple answer is when the right one comes along blah blah blah each new attempt only sends me further away from anything healthy causing it to be even more difficult for the next not just for me but I if I become more difficult to deal with for them. this is not a for me statement or request for feedback on and I'm putting out. It is real I have spoke with many people on these matters and has been a very long time ago send anyone has seen something that is in my error. the only thing I am told is when the right one comes along blah blah. I truly I think I just let it go and accept I'm not meant to be in a healthy or even lasting relationship. I have in my life learn to accept some things that were very very hard to accept but this one I cannot accept though I try because if I did if I could I would be happy but I can't. getting complicated already lol they're infinite applications and the interactions with two people seems chance alone should land me in a health relationship. but it's always love one of two ways always seems possibly unlikely that is due to chance alone.
just for the record yeah I am impossibly confused right now and the most certainly there are errors in what I just said actually I don't know what I'm even trying to say so you don't need to point that out or suggested maybe I'm just not ready. where I am right now from just my latest event to be single and get right with myself. I have done that many times I speak with the people some of them professionals in this field not one of them l believes this is a flaw in myself. some some of them will admit that It does seem to have no answer and indeed it is a very difficult thing for them to have any advice on because again they really see no problem with the things I'm doing or saying or feeling and chance alone would say it can't always be the same. Even with two possible results the out of this happening are astronomically low. but most will say just got to wait all right person blah blah blah I'm open to any thoughts outside that That box. any new information on way of looking at this hope you have great bye with me actually think I'm not meant to be happy. there are people through no fault of their own same to have unfair things happen to him around them even in them that cause blasting universal damage who's the same that one of them admit this isn't how it's supposed to It is supposed to be. That is what I seek to except I don't know why I'm still unable to