gathering my strength
another night sitting here trying to figure out what I've done wrong when I don't think it's anything that I've done wrong by no means my perfect I'm not saying she's wrong either. just sitting here gathering my strength going over and over in my mind things that I know. this relationship is toxic we have to split up I love her I believe she loves me but it's just so much more pain than it is happiness. pray that I'm right and believing that we love each other even though we're very doubtful will make it as unhappy as I am I don't want to know that she's not sincere. Even if she is her actions show me very different things hurt lack of desired make me happy and heartbreaking to say the least and her blaming me for everything is wrong in the relationship for all the negative feelings she encounters is more than I can I feel as though I'm at least proficient in relationships and understanding and I get none not a pity pot that I'm on. whether it's just where I'm sitting cuz I gather my strength even if she breaks it off she'll come back the next day tell me all about how I heard her how her needs are getting considered how selfish I am so I'm gathering my strength though move on not to blame not the point fingers just find some way for us to not be together hopefully with his little pain for either of us as possible. All of a sudden don't ask me tomorrow for the other I'm weak and we probably will be I know it will be until I gather enough strength to end this. May God be with me I will need a strength cuz I don't have enough to do this.
@selfdisciplinedPenny4408
I hope you find your strength and resolve to stick to it ......
playing blame is useless it takes two to make or break a relationship. when it comes time to move on even the bad times look familiar and comfortable compared to the unknown of the future. Many time even if we have feeling for this person it is better for both to move on to be happy
Yes of course you're right and I've done it I've broke up went over there this morning of course to her it's because of a single comment but we all know it's not and never is she refuses to acknowledge my feelings and in her mind it's because her feeling or hurt I broke up and are feelings she said we're hurt because she has a speech impediment and she used to talk to text and I couldn't understand what she was saying just talk to text messed it up nonetheless it's done I'm pretty sure it's going to stay cuz she called the police and everything because I wouldn't leave without my stuff she didn't want to give me my stuff right then she wanted to win that battle so I had to leave and she'll put my stuff on the porch lol pretty sure it'll take though she's not a very forgiving person
@selfdisciplinedPenny4408
beyond any feelings
she called the police to make you leave WITHOUT your personal possessions, put you out
well that isn't love.
I suggest also calling the police go back and get your belongings, and your relationship, BTW, is over.
Sounds like for the best!!!