40+ and played by a man .. What to do?!
How do I get over the fact that I was played by a man?
 I've been married for 20 years, so literally stopped dating in the early 2000s.. I think I stayed there, innocent, my guard down.. That guy appeared, said he has attachment issues, played with my mind, went hot and cold, played confused and not knowing what to do with his life, lied few times, disappeared for 4 months and blocked me meanwhile.. Then returned to apologize, to say it's him not me, and that he decided to stay alone for an year.
It hurts so much! I feel so stupid for allowing him to play around, I feel I should have done something more and that I wasn't good enough. God! There were so many red flags from the very beginning and I just ignored them.
How do I get over that? How do I survive? It hurts so much and it's a month already since he told me that..