should I send the message?
I got broken up with back in March. She said she just lost attraction for me. At the time, I thought it was fine. But more recently I can't stop thinking about her.
She got me to go out and do fun things I wouldn't on my own. She pushed me to better myself, even if I didn't always listen. I looked forward to cooking with her whenever I was at her house. The feeling her laying on me after dinner just watching TV was some of the best company I've had. I feel like I lost the best person I had in my life.
All that to say, I'm pretty sure telling her this now, 5 months later is a terrible idea. But I can't shake the desire to. Everythings still cordial, we've spoken a few times since and are friendly enough. So it's not like I'm wanting to get back with someone who absolutely hates me. I'm just stuck between "go for it, you never know" and "she broke up with me, balls in her court if she still has feelings."