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Thoughts of my ex GF. It affected my whole night and made me feel super depressed.

whawkins July 30th, 2017

My ex gf and I have been split up for just over a month now. She broke up with me (seemed sudden) and did it over text because she didn't want to hear my emotions or be scared of what my reaction would be.

So I went out for a friends birthday last night (bar/club) and once I started drinking and being in the club scene/vibe, all I could think about was my ex gf. My ex gf liked to go out to the club a lot and I keep thinking that maybe I'm wondering if that's what she's up to now.

My other thought is that I could be guilty for going out to the club as I really never used to go by myself. I would see other girls there who resembled my ex gf (hair mostly), and I kept wanting to run out of the club just to get away from it all. I felt like I was starting to have an anxiety attack because of it.

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soulsings August 1st, 2017

@whawkins I am sorry for the loss of your girlfriend. That sounds so difficult to cope with. You see her when you go back to the clubs.

Guilt is a common feeling when someone leaves us. It is really hard not to blame ourselves and think what we could have done different for a different outcome. Probably nothing. Relationships happen and unhappen and it is not our fault. People are experimenting and probably do not know what they want. It is not your fault.

Hope you find something that represents joy in your life.

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whawkins OP August 2nd, 2017

@soulsings

@soulsings

You do have a good point. I do feel guilty for the times where I screwed up, but I also feel guilty because I tried to get her to speak up if s had concerns, but she never did. So maybe I shouldn't beat myself up about it, because I thought everything was going well right until the end. She broke up via text and became very cold to me. Yes I had my moments where I would become irritable about situations or when plans would change last minute, and I always assured her later on that I was never ever irritated with her. But she felt like I was.

This is where I battle myself. Yes, if I wouldn't have been irritable in those situations things would've continued, but who knows the next time that I would become irritable again. What are your thoughts? Do you feel that even if things like that are delayed, do you think they could still happen later down the road?

I do miss her and people keep saying that she probably misses me to or has guilt/regrets; but the way she dumped me and how she said there was just no way of getting back together, I always doubt it. I'd appreciate your thoughts and comments further.

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soulsings August 2nd, 2017

@whawkins sorry you miss them so much. That makes it difficult to move on when we are looking in the rear view mirror. I am not sure if you would have different result. That was a cold way for them to end a relationship, a dear John text message. That does not commmunicate to me that they are deeply concerned about your feelings. I am sorry they did what they did but I cannot see any warmth or caring, but maybe I overlooked something.

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whawkins OP August 3rd, 2017

@soulsings

Yeah I feel like it may not have been the same. It just gets to me how it seemed like she decided to break up so quickly. The week before she was talking about my visit to her place the weekend after. She seemed so excited, and then she decided to break up the week before, but that was after she asked about me coming down there and she said she was excited.

I still get at myself for thinking what I could've done differently, and it hurts me but I keep thinking that the couple days leading up to it were the erasons that she did it. Maybe I should've done something differently. But others are telling me that a girl will usually think a breakup over before breaking up with anyone. So she may have been thinking about it for a while.

Maybe I annoyed her...? Maybe I texted her one too many times.... but I hate myself and everytime I think about it, I want to die. At least I wouldn't have to see/work with her again. :(

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