Not supposed to be ME

I m a girl from a background where all this gf n bf aren't supposed to be hv.... but still i found someone who understands me.. loves me truly...n willingly or unwillingly i fall for him... we supposed to hv chat online for hours... sharing each n evry life story.... frm smallest to biggest... it was really an unbelievable experience i hv ever had... we stayed together for months in the relationship.... loved... fought,,,,laughed... screamed... argued....!!!! continuing our unsteady long distance relationship...which i hv not even dreamt about... 1 month...2...3...4...5...6...7..8...9..& then break up!!!!! coz of me!!! i suddenly realised i dnt love him anymore!! hurted him a lot.... ashamed of myself..