I’m tired
I made a post a few days ago about my breakup where I said that I didn’t know how to feel about my ex and our breakup. I am so tired of thinking about him. It would be better if we broke up immediately (even though I still want him back), rather than making an agreement to meet in a month. I am tired of thinking that what if he changes his mind and won’t want to see me in a month. I am tired of the pain inside of my chest. I am tired of heart palpitations. I am tired of suppressing the urge to break the no contact rule and write him just anything. I cannot concentrate on anything. Oh lord, I love reading so much, but I cannot concentrate on it. I read two sentences and then I get lost in my own thoughts and I have to re-read the same sentences for five times to get the idea. I cannot work properly, cannot study. I started to smoke again, but it doesn’t help for long. Some people say that I have to accept these feelings as it will help to heal faster. Others say I need to control my emotions and not let the grief get over me. What do I have to do….. I just need some support