Breakup - full of anger and disappointment
I broke up with him a few weeks ago, after not being in touch for a month. End of October he came over (would have been in a long distance for 3 years this year) after not seeing each other and realised that there's been no real interest on his part in anything other than sex and him feeling comfortable. First day we spent together was him insisting on sleeping together even though I repeatedly rejected the idea. Eventually caved in and something broke in me I guess, couldn't be bothered to.communicate what was wrong and couldn't stand his touch or contact that much. Felt like I emotionally and mentally gave up. He asked if I was ok and that I seem upset, but I told him I'll be ok; his reaction was to lock himself in his room and next day acting like any other normal day.
It was such an unpleasant feeling to be around him that I started feeling physically sick. After 2 days with him I went back to my place, and requested from him a week of distance, him replying that I haven't talked with him since he got to me anyway, so I can "have at it". A week goes by and none of us gets in touch with each other, continuing for one month of silence and me deciding breaking up is the healthiest solution.
Now here I am, feeling relieved and more focused, but feeling lonely, ashamed and most of all angry. Any suggestions on how to work through the anger and bad sleep?
Sorry for the long post.
Thank you.