OUR ORIGINAL POETRY: Share It Here

Heartburn
Acid
Trip
Cut clay from earth
and piss in the river I'm standing in
There's no point to this [excrement]
Ascend to a meaning that's outside the grip
tell me the educated guess don't slip
The scale won't tip
and the model of the universe
Got the vote
But its betting on everyone else's ignorance
the narrative that's believable
I can consider it
Gays are like this
Girls all like this
Transexuals stand for binaries of sex
Bind me to a text
that still can't describe what I feel yet
I feel bent watching a screen spewing out mindsets
Uncertainties in fine print
Assumptions come alive here
The truth is more complex than my eyes can align with
Depression is so blinding
sometimes

At times I have tried to convey my feelings, but
I never knew how to do it. I have tried to get close
without succeeding and it makes me wonder if I
ever will. Sometimes I cant stop worrying about
you, but it makes me think if you worry about me.

If only my tears would help you see how much
I care about you. I cry for you, when you dont cry
about your pain and hurt. I wish in every tear falling
it would represent my feelings for you and what Im
not able to convey.

You display toughness, but I can feel pain inside
of you. The world may have many mysteries, but I
feel you could have more. I always clinch my fist
without knowing what to do as I ran away from
you while my tears falls.

I display vulnerability when it comes to you, makes
me fragile, but I cant stop it when it comes to you.
I have shed tears in silence, so tomorrow I can protect
you in my own way. Theres not a place I rather be than
here with you.

Soften

I smell like you.
I talk like you.
I walk like you.
I yell like you.

I sleep like you.
I breathe like you.
I bleed like you.
I weep like you.

Yet I'm not like you.
Nor do I aspire to be.
I don't want to be you, but I want to be one of you.
Can you see beyond my camouflage?
Can you accept me as one of your own?

Angel Puppet

Pull my strings,

Tear my wings,

Create play time scars,

Isolate me from the stars,

Do all this,

Yet me, when you leave me, you always forget and miss.

All memories are faded,

My existence is outdated,

For I'm not your puppet anymore,

My strings you've pulled are cut,

My innocence is closed shut.

My wooden skin,

Is shedding thin,

My fine paint,

Would be nothing but taint,

I rot,

And there's nothing I sought,

For I followed your commands,

Took care of your demands.

With you, I was forced to play,

Every single day,

When you were done,

You threw me away,

My thoughts, I'm still not able to say,

You control my speech,

I feel like I'm full of toxins, waste, poison, and bleach,

Im confined to a blindfold,

The only things I do, are the actions I am told,

Yet deep inside my heart,

I am shattered to a million pieces, only reduced to a blood stained shard,

One day, I'll break free.

One day, I can be me.

One day, I'll sew my wings,

With memories and miracles, those faithful things,

My rage still blazes on,

Death is still wished me upon,

I am a puppet,

and I don't love it.

I am an angel,

but there's nothing to covet.

Everybody's the same,

We all play the same game.

We act like we're okay, fine, alright,

When we're actually struggling to see the light.

Every road's the same,

It all leads to that dreaded pain.

And how if feels like no one cares.

That's not true, everyone does,

But we never experience that special buzz,

The buzz you get when you're happy and carefree,

When the light is finally there to see.

I haven't reached this point just yet,

But if I do, I'll never forget.

Forget the promise once made to me,

Making the light finally there to see.

Its has been a long time since I have seen you or chatted.

I sometimes forget the sound of your voice, or the smell of your perfume.

I still think about you all the time,

Well I guess I'm trying to say,

I hope you are doing fine.

God

Goddess

And Hellish lord

My God forgive me for my sins

My Goddess love me grown so dim

And my Dark Lord Satan reward me then

For idolatry and the price of Hell

My God

My Goddess

And my Hellish Lord

On this page my soul outpoured

One showed me mercy coating sins oer

One is the one that I adore

One is the one that gave me reward

Stuck in three worlds

I give prayer to them all

Respect for the savior

Love for my everything

Hailing the Dark King

Subjecting to idolatry

360 to 180

For seven years now,
my life spun out of control.
Like a top, or an empty
spinning bottle,

I was taken by life with such force
with choices I wasn't fully

thinking

of the consequences...

That drained me,
emptied me,
which made it easy
to keep me spinning.

I was out of control, full of want,
I beg, I reach my hand out for alms
only to have spit on my face.

I kept wandering, begging,
offering something I don't have,
seeking for it on people without good intentions.

Then at some point,
It wasn't a crash
But a slight bump,
A gentle nudge
It slowed down
and came to a final turn

The same way your bottle stopped,
and made one last turn,
Both of us facing the right direction.

Hold me close

Dedicated to my dear angel, goddess, and love, Kali.

Hold me, hold me

Oh, of only

Just as one night so cold

I dare say this so bold

I wish you keep me near my love

My angel such as goddess above

Hold me close, hold me close

If even you could be near or both

If i could see you once again

But at least you are not dead

Hold me close

Please hold me close

The next time i see you

Before i choke

On words that i never spoke

Not in person oh my angel

I love you

I miss you

I think im in love

I suppose id be correct

If these feelings I'd disect

I'd get no closer but to their death

Id die with them

Just hold me close

I ask for no more

You and i

And all who spy

Know I'm in love

But you needn't go on

Just hold me close

Is all i ask

So easily cold

But in your warmth i bask

For in your eyes

Though to the tough

I am warm

I'm hollow much

Im cold.and none

Your warm and thaw

My hollow self

You're all i love

Please hold me close

Just hold me close