Hi, my name is Matt

Hey my name is Matt

I have been diagnosed with several things but I think BPD and panic disorder are probably the most prominent... The panic disorder I knew about for the last 7 years but the BPD is more recent. I think to a degree I have been in denial about it.

I tried to cure myself with healthy living, eating well, exercise, sport and better thought patterns. I quit my anti depressants and tranquilisers, but I have since come to believe that my problems are biological so I started a mood stabilizer today. I have some anti depressants for the anxiety but I'm thinking ill hold onto those and see how much of a difference the mood stabilizer makes alone. I'm always a bit nervous taking new medication but lets see how it goes!

As for the actual BPD, I have been told that I'm highly self aware. I made a conscious decision to stay single about 9 months ago because I am tired of ending relationships out of guilt. You know how it goes, you get moody... see the bad... the other person feels bad... you feel guilty. Luckily I'm not aggressive but definitely moody

Anyway! Nice to meet you all - thanks for reading!