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This is a personal space for @SyriusSystem Please don't lurk,or read any messages , upvote or reply to anything here if you're not @SyriusSystem or @littleNini16 ❤️❤️
I made this space cause sometimes you disappeare and I don't get the time to ask how you are........
@SyriusSystemI
I'm doing okay, thanks for asking. But I'm more concerned about you. How are you coping with the memory gaps?
If it's serious kevv you should tell someone about it mkay?
And spilting of alters, okay that's a whole new level of me been scared, kevv you won't stop existing if you spilt right?
Okay my brain is going cocooooo, right now.
It's just so ........ Idk but if you spilt will you still be you ?
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭, am so confused
I'm so scared and anxious, I got no idea what's going on
I told our therapist about it and since she's not a did professional she didn't know a lot about it so she said she needed to do more research
I think I'll still be me? Idk, everything is just so confusing..
I think I'll still exist tho..I hope so
I'm sorry it took long to answer again😭
Luv u buddy💛
How've u been btw
@SyriusSystem
@ThornyNini
omg-- thas a lot of work buddy, im even suprised u get time to be on here, ure so hardworking0o0, like im out of words to say
u must be exhausted *warm hugs* thx for findin time to talk to lil ol me<3
im happy u also got to take that off ur chest, my ears r always open to listen bud, u dont gotta lie bout how u feelin
i hope u get to rest some time soon, like fr XD
luv u bud, tc!
@SyriusSystem
😞😞am not hardworking, I barely have a choice so it's do it or get scolded at my life is more of an obligation than free will.
That many be the last time I'm gonna talk about anything,no matter how bad it is am never gonna open up to anyone , I'll just stay quiet like the perfect robot I am, and if I fall, I'll rise and I'll thrive again.
And ofc I always find a little bit of time to talk to you. I'll take care am pretty good at it 😊.
Byeee and take care,talk to you another time 😊.
awh, i hope u get to open up from time to time tho, its ok to fall and its ok to admit u fell
im proud of u tho, for bein so strong and takin care of things by urself, just kno im here if u want someone to listen to u or comfort u, ill try my best to help my bestie
tc^^ luv u *hugs*
@SyriusSystem
Yeah, thanks kev *hugs super duper tight*
Hi budyy Howre u doin today?
Me I'm so happy cause we'll be gettin discharged next week ð¥³
I hope ur end of day is goin well0^0
@SyriusSystem
Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, lilll keviiiiii, am so happy your getting discharged next week 🥁🥁👏👏.
Me is alrighttttt. Anywhoooo what are you gonna do when you get discharged?
@ThornyNini
we're gonna go to a festival in torontoooo
Wait nvm I misheard0_0 we're not gonna go to Toronto.. lol
But anywhooo, idk what I'll do
I'll prolly go ride the bike or smn
@SyriusSystem
This is why littleee keviiiii shouldn't listen when bigggg grown upppp people are talking 😅😅😅, anyways stay safe and ride carefully ❣️
@SyriusSystem
Forgot to ask, how was your day?
@ThornyNini
downright awful- im losin my mind.. i cant tell who i am anymore..
@SyriusSystem
Hey kev ! I'm here for you and I'm not going anywhere.
Splitting and losing track of your identity is very frightening, but I want you to know that you're not alone in this. I'm sure your system is working hard to protect you.
Remember, you are more than your current problem , your Kevin and the Kevin I know is a resilient, a strong,capable, and compassionate person with so much to offer, your identity may feel fragmented, but you are still you, and you'll still be you.
Would you like to talk more about what's happening right now? Sometimes sharing your thoughts and feelings can help us feel better. I'm here to listen to anything ,if you need to switch or take a break, that's okay too, Do you have a safe space or activity that helps you calm down?
Before I forget you've navigated challenging times before and come out stronger, am sure you can do it again, and lastly kev, everything you spilt, and can't remember who you are I'll always remember and all the fun memories we had, even though you don't know who you are right now you'll always be a little duckyyyyy, and I'll never forget such an awesome duckyyyyyyyy*hugggggggs super tight*
Ly/p 💜 and I'll always be here for you 💜.
That's reminds me kev, can you tell your parents about it, or anyone rn?
@Syrius system, sorry most of my spellings aren't correct,and I used the wrong term
The problem is, idk if I'm Kevin... none of the memories I have make sense, I don't feel complete, it's like a broken mirror that u can't piece back together.. the person I thought I was.. I don't even know who that is.. I don't even know if this makes sense
Even if I had a safe space, I wouldn't know what it is.. cause I can't remember..
Thx for being here for me nini, it's appreciated
Others in the system kno about it but not our parents..
I rlly don't know what to do..
@SyriusSystem
I'm sorry your feeling that way kev, I'm sorry if I don't know what to say anymore 😞😞, I can't find the right words and I feel awuful 😭, please tell your parents kev,so they do something 🥺❤️🩹, am sure you can get help or something.
@SyriusSysytem
I know this is of no use but I miss so much kev,it feels like agess not talking to you, it's I don't really know what to say but these days haven't really been the best, I think I lost my sanity along the way, cause I really can't feel it anymore, I'm not okay in real life and am not okay on cups, real life makes me feel *** up mentally,and now I can't even come on cups it also makes me feel weak mentally, I don't wanna end up taking stupid decision cause I always think stupidly when am not okay.
I miss you bud, but I know your gone now.
I'll just rant eventhough I probably won't get a reply.
Thanks for everything you've done for me!
@LittleNini16
buddy im so sorry i left u all alone without sayin anything TT^TT even when i said i'd tell u i still didnt say so, im so sorry.. i honestly didnt expect id just decide that one day randomly, i just closed my eyes and i wanted to be gone, im so sorry that i left u at such a hard time
maybe my coming back wont change much, ik it aint right for me to just randomly disappear and randomly come back, it makes no sensee, but even tho, i still wanted to come back here, for u, for everyone else too, im so sorry i left<3
i hope ure still here... if possible i wanna continue bein buddies
papa ducky's back? <3 i luv u bud, so sorry again
@SyriusSystem
It's okishhh, I'm glad your back!!!
I actually don't know what to say lol am not much of a talker anymore 😹😹,and am not on cups anymore maybe once in a blue moon that's when am here✌️
Anywhoooo how are you doing?
Am glad your back frr
With love Nini 💜
This time, u have my word, I'll be there waiting for the once in a blue moon when ure there 💙 I won't vanish on u XD
I'm trynna re adapt to everything, it's like the world's spinning ten time faster 🥲
Hbu? How've u been, did u get into uni?
Big hugss 🫂
