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SyriusSystem
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slowly losing it (S.O.S)
PathStep 7 Compassion hearts4,218 Forum posts135 Forum upvotes167 Current upvotes167 Age GroupTeen Last activeJanuary, 2025 Member sinceFebruary 29, 2024
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"Don't look up too much, you'll get blind" - Dylan

"It's crazy how crazy people think everyone else except them is crazy" - Shana

"Life will never give you lemons, you have to plant the tree yourself " -lynnias

"People never realize how much they influence others around them" -unknown

"When you calm down, think about it" -lily

"Lose that smile, win back that freedom" -rin

"Sometimes, letting go is not an option" - Scarlette

"i swear imma finna let go one dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy god!!!! why meeeeeeeeee! did i commit a sin? what did i even do???????? im not even supposed to existttt" -also dylan 

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bye bye everybody^^, it was a good journey on here (:




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breakdown...?
Journals & Diaries / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 January 15th
...See more hi.. it's me, loik and currently it's 10:19 pm, we're alone in the house, chloe and her husband (foster parents) had to go out for something.. i don't remember what- i feel so overwhelmed right now. it's like the world is spinning around in circles.. i'm losing my mind. first, this day was the most horrible day ever since the week started. i expect bad days like these but i do not know how to deal with them.. i can hear.. i can hear anny(a little) screaming.. at the back of my head, i think she's having a flashback... i hope someone helps her- but the screaming.. it's so painful to hear, and i'm feeling these emotions, i don't know if they're mine or hers. i have tears running down my face- we haven't eaten since we got back from the hospital, we haven't been taking care of ourselves, liah is gone, things feel impossible to do without her.. we should be sleeping right now, but i shouldn't sleep... i can't sleep, we need to take our medication but i don't know where they put it.. my mind is in so much panick right now, i feel like i'm triggering myself into something.. i can hear my heart beating.. and kevin s co-con with me, trying his best to help but it,s too loud and blurry and i don,t even know why... why i'm writting this.. no one can help, no one will- i need to sleep, we need to eat, we need our medication, we need help and i need to calm down and think straight... why does this always happen when i'm fronting.. why.. why why why why why why why and now its 10:30 pm.. i'm dizzy, can't hear anny anymore.. i have a splitting headache and still co-con with kevin... carers still not back and my head's going blank, i think i'm dissociating.. or i've just gone numb.. but it doesn't feel like it, if i was numb i wouldn't be feeling this pain.. i wish time would stop, i wish.. someone else would front.. i can't do this...
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"as for those who seek warmth, come, let's sit by the fire"
Poetry / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 January 6th
...See more I had a dream, you weren't in it I was running from myself, cause the ground had split The wind was strong, very much that it took away my breath It reminded me how much you loved, how you looked at me till your death Please, let me dream a little more Maybe in this chase, i'll find you, with that white dress you wore Take me with you! yelled my soul Forever yearning for you, how can fate be so foul My friend, my love, here i mourne, here i stand Forever yearning for peace, dear Clandestine, Please, understand
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For fizz
Journals & Diaries / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 6 hours ago
...See more Hiya fizz, it's me Kevin. I made this forum cause yesterday I feel like I didn't leave things the right way? Idk but, I left so abruptly and u weren't ok The way I treated things, that's how I normally am, whenever stuff like that happens, I gotta be the one to push it over and act as if nothin had happened and it's my bad that all this happened Ik u said that I don't need to apologize but imma do it anyways cause u deserve an apology, that prolly brought up rlly bad memories for u I'm here for u man, if u got any questions, if u need an explanation, I'm here to answer Pls be honest, u don't need to act as if it's all ok cause I know it's not aight, 💙 @ZeroFizz Idk if the f in ur username is capital or not so imma put both just to be sure XD @Zerofizz
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call it love
Poetry / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 January 10th
...See more it snowed that day a grey cloud preyed on me, the wind was heavy, there i was planted between running and pleading it snowed that day when you smiled at me, said everything was alright, but why does my heart beat so fast, so fast as if almost bursting through my chest it snowed that day i looked into your eyes, you looked into mine, filled with a pool of tears waiting to overflow, my trembling voice couldn't reach you in time as you spoke, words of love that i can't recognize it snowed that day as i looked out the window, the beautiful flakes making the ground their own, as you said, how marvelous my face was, and held me by the throught it snowed that day pinned against a wall, i felt helpless, as if the coldness of your finger tips sucked the life out of me, finally a tear drops, your wicked amused smile tells me, heaven has abandonned me it snowed that day the pain was enough to numb out the sound of your voice, yelling, piercing in my ears, saying that you loved me, i once believed those words, i'm not too sure now it snowed that day when  i looked back on how i trusted you, when things went wrong, i have no clue, what i do know is, no one would ever believe me if i told them what you did as it snowed that day, i asked myself if this is what they call love, the love they wrote about in books was never like this, at least not as i imagined it. if this is love, i want no part in it call it love, call it monstrous
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circle of friends!
Journals & Diaries / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 January 2nd
...See more hi there! its me again ^^(loik incase you forgot (: ) oo double smiley😙 alrighty! i've went on and decided that this is a small space for me, and the system and anyone who wants to join in the convo because life is too much sometimes, its good to have a laugh and cut yourself some slack! there will be multiple topics in this area in the future. debates if you may! alters from the system will engage in these debates and anyone who wishes to is permited to join :)  i decided to call it "circle of friends" cause i hope its like one of those round table things in the movies where people get to bring up different topics to talk about ( if ya catch the ref) First topic! (flight or fight!!) -you read it right(: in a stressful/uncomfortable situation, is it better to avoid/run/ hide/ ignore or face it/ fight/ bring it on!  remeber to be nice while debating everyone!^^
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hi, it's me (: (whoever that is)
Journals & Diaries / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 January 5th
...See more haa... here we go. i dont even know what to write, i wanted to write something but i dont know what to write. ok- here we go ever felt as if nothing was real? as if the world around you, the people, including you, were part of some sort of movie, a dream if you may. i feel  like that everyday, i plead and cry. pray that i wake up because.. this isnt a dream. far from that, this is a nightmare. running away became a hobby, if i dont remember, thats better. but if i dont remember who i am.. what would be next. whoever it is... his name was loik. a fun, bubbly little charmer. right? right! that guy who wouldnt stop smiling. thats him..right?...here we go again i had a dream.. it was beautiful, i was alone, i could see the sun rise in the horizon, and you were calling my name..._____! what was it again?...this has got to stop. so i decided to wake up.-- each time i drifted, a sharp pain, a little drop of red and i was back... questionable methodes? yes. does it work? yes. it hurts, but at least im awake. right?  ok, i know this is a little confusing but bear with me, ive never journaled before alright? hahaa, this is my first time^^, so what im trying to say is... heck i dont even know what im trying to say but, ya thats me! -loik  see you next time, when i get the hang on how to journal! ^^
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lynnias
Poetry / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 December 21st, 2024
...See more hi, to whom ever might read this. it's not exactly a poem, it's more like... my confession if you may. some of you, though i think it's improbable, you might know me. it's certain though that most of you don't. here's a quick presentation of *me*. my name is lynnias. i'm a trauma holder from the syrius system. i have been around for a while and recently decided to engage on 7cups since some alters said it was a nice place to blow off some steam. now, whatever i say here, don't let it fog your perception of 7cups, this is my experience and my own emotional judgement, i bear no ill intension to  tarnish this place's reputation. when i first started my journey here, it went as i expected but there were some exceptions. what i expected was being forgotten, ignored and overlooked. what i didn't expect was being seen and even sometimes taken care of. don't get me wrong, people on here are nice, they are loving but.. everytime i entered a chat room, no matter which one it was, i got ignored. ofcourse, i was used to it, no one ever paid attention to me even in real life, not even in the system. the one friend who ever talked to me left because of me so it wa no suprise that even here, the same thing would happen. however, as stupid as i was, i kept on coming back, i don't know what i was looking for. maybe it was me trying to change, or my last cry for help, i guess we'll never find out. everytime i felt overwhelmed, i was on here, i entered a chat room, and got ignored, it hurt but i kept on coming back for more. now i realise how sturbon i was, but looking back, i don't think it would've been easy to let go. when i saw others being cared for, helped or even joking around, that friendly atmosphere, i wanted to be part of it. maybe i'm timid, maybe i'm just not meant for this place. by making this forum post, first of all, i'd like to apologize to my fellow system members if this post get's them in trouble in the future. i also want to thank everyone who has ever showed me kindness and i want to show anyone who is going through the same thing, be it an alter or someone, i want to show them that they're not alone. maybe i was stupid to believe that i could ever be loved, maybe i just didn't deserve anyone's attention. maybe all that i'm doing now is in vain because no one will even bother to read this. but i couldn't care less. i've grown tired, tired of having such thoughts, tired of trying everyday for it to end up failing. so, i've decided to rest. it's not like anyone needs me anywhere, be it here, in the system or even in real life. nobody even knows me in real life. so no one will notice that i'm gone, unless they stumble upon this so when i go dormant, i doubt anyone will even care.. i've said what i wanted to, i did my last plea.. this was lynnias- signing out
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under stars
Poetry / by SyriusSystem
Last post
 December 10th, 2024
...See more Was the sky always so alluring? Since when have I been detached from everything? I ask the moon, he answers Not too attached, he answers When do you see, if you're always talking? When do you feel, if you're always giving? Eyes wide open, a river ready to fall What's stopping me, I can't really recall I ask the sun and she answers Whispering through my spirit, she answers Here above, I see all Your cries and screams, yes, I've heard it all Would the sky swallow me if I begged Would the wind carry me to where I'm headed I asked the rain, and it answers Comforting me, it answers Nothing else can save you but yourself In *** for too long, you must've forgotten the peace you held Pondering under stars With nothing else to look at, But my beautiful scars
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