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This is a personal space for @SyriusSystem Please don't lurk,or read any messages , upvote or reply to anything here if you're not @SyriusSystem or @littleNini16 ❤️❤️
I made this space cause sometimes you disappeare and I don't get the time to ask how you are........
@SyriusSystem
Sorry 😔 😔,for what happened yesterday,am here if you wanna talk?
Day 2:: still breathing
Me is fine today wasn't so good my tummy hurts,I felt like throwing up,ewwww,I still feel like it though,and am sure I already told you ,me been a nosy fairy, I was poking my nose when my parents were talking you can't blame me ,I am so curious.Now am gonna act like am surprised when they tell me ,am in so much trouble 💀💀
The test results came out told and since I wasn't minding my business I overhead everything.
So, I have a Congenital Heart Defect (CHD) which means I was born with a heart condition,how did I not know thought it was normal when my heart hurt didn't know it was that serious.Unfortunately, it can't be cured, but I can manage it with the right medications currently, I'm not feeling well, and I'm dealing with some discomfort.
Now your turn.......
How are you feeling today?
Byeeeee, luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu 💜 💜 💜, ad take care
@littleNini16
see? told u ud make it0^0 even tho its not curable im so happy u can make it with the right medicationz!<3 and i get bein nosy XD tho im not as nosy as u smh🤦♂️
so will u be discharged any time soon or is it still too early0w0
as for me-- ive not been that good, i keep on gettin ptsd episodes, more frequently now and i may or may not OD yesterday, luckily was found at the right time, will get discharged today:3
i kno, it wasnt a very good or right thing to do, i was stupid.. i cant say i cant take it anymore, i never did manage anything or face it head on, im just scared.. thats all
luv u too💜tc
@SyriusSystem
Didn't know you where in the hospital, seriously kev you guys have been a lot ,I can't imagine and like one duckyyyyyyyy said "we can always hide in a cave"" sooo let's keep on hiding XDDDDDDD ,smhhh am jealous you have to go home now but am also happy....
Don't do anything stupid again mkay???? Or rinnnyyy is gonna be my fav and I wouldn't talk to you anymore 🥺
Tbh am glad I still get to see another bit seriously for how long is the medication going to sustain me,fr I have doubt I know am supposed to be positive but it's hard...
Yeppp,am still gonna be at the hospital,they don't even allow me to walk or go anywhere, smhhhhhhh they aren't gonna let me go now , maybe a week or something......
Hmmmmm ,guess that's all take care buddy 😊
Love yaaaaaaaaaaàaaaaaaaaaaaa 💜 💜 💜
@littleNini16
i know how hard it can be stayin positive, we also got medical stuff goin on, we had a tumor and went thru chemo with it but when they saw it wasnt helpin that much they had to give surgery but then they said they couldnt remove the whole thing nw we got 5 yrs left to live..
im also doin my best to stay positive, they said it could deteriorate at any time so..
well anyways. just kno we're in this together, u here for me, i here for u 0^0
ill not do anythin stupid again(i think) pls dont stop talkin to me🥺
luv u sosososososoooo muchh🌟 dw ull b able to get out sooner or laterr, keep ur head high0^0 tcc
@SyriusSystem
I'm so sorry to hear about the tumor, chemo, and surgery kev, for real Five years seem scary but don't let it define your spirit You're a warrior and you keep fighting every day.🥺🥺
"Forget the fact that am a coward,I know it sounds weird coming for me"
Your positivity inspires me and ya your right me is here for you and you is here for me 🥺🥺
Always remember kev
I'm here for you, always,I may not be here always but for the time I have I'll try 🥺🥺
You're not alone in this fight.
We'll celebrate every victory, no matter how small.
You're loved, cherished, and valued.
Don't worry about stupid moments – we all have them you're human, and that's what makes you amazing.
Sending you:
Love
Hugs
Support
Encouragement
And lastly
Positive vibes
Byeeeee 🤗🤗🤗🤗
@littleNini16
thankyu so much buddy🥺 im happy that even i can inspire someome..
ill also do my best to be here for and with you<3
sending:
warm hugs
fairy dust
watermelon
andd all my luvvv
with a sprinkle of positivity too
tcccc💜
@SyriusSystem
Hi kevvvvvv🥺🥺
Heyyyyyy, sorry I haven't checked in on you all day. I heard your still in the hospital thought you were discharged already ,I can only imagine how tough things might be for you right now but want you to know that I believe in you you're strong and capable, and I know you can get through this,and you have to not give up, because that would give me a reason to give up too, Take care of yourself, buddy, and know that I'm sending you all my positive energy and healing vibes,how you get well soon 🥺🥺*hugs super tight**
Loveeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuu 💗💗 hope you get better soon,am tired of been the papa ducky,I really need you to get well soon so I can be the little ducky again 🥺🥺
@littleNini16
papa duckys backk dw<3<3 hugsss
@SyriusSystem
Heyyy buddy it's the end of another day haven't heard from you 🥺🥺
Hope you okay? 🥺🥺
*Sending hugs and lots of Positive energy* get well soon ducky,
Smmhh I miss trolley mannnnnn,and little Piggyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Even papa duckyyyyyyy
Just upvote this so I know your okay you don't have to reply
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu 💜,take care buddy , wishing you speedy recovery
@SyriusSystem
Hi hiiiii kevvv, it's another day just checking in, hyd ?
hope to see you soon 😊😊
*Hugggggggs tightly*
I brought you cookies 🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪and🧃🧃🧃🧃🧃🧃🧃🧃🧃and lots of juice boxes if you don't eat them am gonna eat them for you,and I really don't want to do that so get well soon so you can have them 🥺🥺🥺.
*Sprays magic pixie dust to make you feel part,heal up soon bud❤️
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu 💜 💜 💜
@SyriusSystem
Hey Kevvv, hope you're doing better today, I'm missing you so much, buddy Every day feels like an eternity without hearing from you i brought you your favorite cookies yesterday, but you didn't get to eat them, so I'll keep them in the freezer for when you're feeling better.
To be honest I'm really worried about you not hearing from you is making me imagine all sorts of scenarios, and it's stressing me out. I just want to know you're okay
On my side I went home yesterday,but am afraid am gonna go back again i'm having frequent nose bleeds and headaches it kind of started when I was at the hospital but I haven't shared this with anyone yet I'm afraid if I do, they'll send me back to the hospital, and I don't want that,I don't wanna go back there it's awuful.
These days are tough, and I desperately need my Sticky Duck by my side your absence is felt deeply, and I'm counting the days until we can catch up
Please take care of yourself, Kevvv sending you all my love, positive vibes, and hugs. Reach out when you can,Stay strong, keep going kevvv you've got this 😊
@littleNini16
thankyu so much for the cookies(: ill eat them with delightt😋
u take care too mkay? im sorry i made u stressed, sendin warm hugss
@SyriusSystem
Kevvvv I missed you sooo much😭😭😭😭,I thought something bad happened to you I thought you d I e d or something 😭😭😭😭, your a meanieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,but I still love this meanie and am glad your alright,fr you don't know how happy I am words alone can describe how I feel 😭😭😭,am so glad fr
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu buddy 🥺🥺, don't ever scare me like that okay my heart can't take it🥺🥺,
Get well soon okay*hugsssssssssssssssss very tightily*
I'm glad little Piggyyyyyyyyyyyyyy is back 🥺🥺
@littleNini16
didnt die, not yet(: almost did tho..
im sorry i got u so worriedd, will never happen again, i think
luv u tooo, papa duckys glad to b back0^0
@SyriusSystem
Smmhhh,you better not die before me.......................,am yeah am glad you back and don't ever talk about dying...............anyways kev what wrong with you?
@SyriusSystem
Hi kevvvv , it's me again hehe, I know I wouldn't bug offf....,I just don't know if you're alright,am imagining endlessly possibility of things happening to you and it isn't helping at all.
Smmmh, I've been gloomy all day ,the end of another *** day today was horrible,am just imagining all the possible times I've thought of doing something and I did it.
Tw\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\self harm,smmhh, remember the last time I told you I drank poison which was a very stupid things to do and yK? I regretted it, it's been years since I did that ,but kev the urges are strong,I think am gonna do it again and I can't resist it , it's compelling I know I shouldn't,I just got back from the hospital I don't wanna go there again but it's all too much,I Know am messing up my life ,but it's not as if am gonna life l o n g anyways, everyone knows am gonna d I e soon or later ,so why not s o o n at least everyone's gonna be relieved sincevam such a big burden anyways ,I've encountered many moments of d e a t h,I think I found my peace in those moments,they were like temporary relief to me fr and tbh rn I just want that moment of relief rn,soooo long story short am gonna do it ........
Then I'll forget everything,all my pain and my problems fr.......
@littleNini16
hi buddy, im so sorry i disappeared like that without notice, things happened.. and well long story short we'll have to stay in the hospital for a while, i rlly hope this reaches u in time, i need u, if u think nobody needs u then ure completely wrong, if it hadnt been for u i wouldnt even be here on cups today, i remembered how i told u that i wouldnt disappear without tellin u, so here i am
i kno the feeling, those thoughts u get, thinkin its better off if u just ended it quickly, to stop botherin everyone, but get this, u dont bother me one bit, ur one of the reasons i somehow get to stop my self sometimes from doin the biggest mistakes ever.. i know how tuff it is, believe me, havin a clock at the throat of ur life is disturbing, everything seems to lose its purpose, but.. if u decide to shorten that time then what about all the other possibilities that couldve happened, all those unexpected, maybe even fun adventures that u couldve had..it may be the smallest reason to keep on living but what if u wait and see, just what could happen next right?
i may not be in the best position to be tellin u this but.. lets keep on swimmin, even if fate has decided to cut our lives short, even if the universe if against us, lets keep on swimmin, see where the current will take us, i got u, u got me.. ill be here for u, waitin as u did for me, i love u lil ducky<3<3 i hope i got here in time..
@SyriusSystem
Noo kevvv I don't have happy days ,I don't have any rainbows after the storm,I have no reason for living, but kevvvv I wanna keep living but am probably not going to, soryyyyyyy kevvvvvv,soryyy buddyyyyyy,but dw for the time I still have I'll be here for you.
Sorryyy buddddddd
@littleNini16 why r u sorryyy u dont have to b sorryy, rllyy
@SyriusSystem
and also yk, neither do i, i dont got any rainbows or happy days either but i.. i still wanna have at least one thing i wont regret, yk how i got all these ppl to protect, how our lives depend on each other.. i also wanna give them a chance at life, no matter the length, wether short lived, idc.. i wanna have somthn i wont regret..
@SyriusSystem
You're so awesome fr kevv and I get you wanting to have one thing you won't regret.........,I understand you have to life live for people ,you wanna give ppl more chances and fr that's so nice............
I hope everything turns out well kevvv, everyone's gonna be so lucky to have you,🥺🥺
*Hugggggggggggggggsss tightly*
Speaking of dying kevvvv, I wonder how nobody haven't noticed but I guess it haven't kicked in yet if you know what am saying.........
But dwww,if it does kick in they get it, they'll pump everything out just like they did the last time,but tbh I know this time is gonna cause me a lot of damages, serious one but on the bright side I can finally get what I want...........
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu buddy,byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *hugs super duper tight*
@littleNini16
i rlly hope they get everythn out.. if ure rlly gone then.. all my courage and perseverance will leave with u, then i might rlly do somthn bad.. ill be checkin on u every day bud<3 pls call an ambulance if no one still doesnt notice and u feel rlly bad, i hope u dont die on me, sending warm hugss
luv u toooo
*hugs rlly tightt**
@SyriusSystem
Am not gonna d i e on you will d i e ony parents, pretty pretty pretty please 🥺 🥺🥺,, don't do anything stupid,you still have so much to live for there'll be lots of consequences for stupid actions , remember you have lots of people who look up to you , and alot of people counting on you,and fr I looked up to you and I always will no matter what,I always will .......
idk anymore... i just dont wanna feel anything anymore... yk i got all these thoughts in my head.. things i would rather let happen than continue sufferin, i never asked for any of this, i never asked to be put in existence... i never wanted any of that.. im not one to look up to.. im not the right person...rn im rlly tryin everythin i can... to not let go... but its not workin nini... my thoughts are winning... i dont wanna do this..rlly.. but its all getting too much.. i rlly cant take this on.. it hurts too much..
@SyriusSystem
Kevin, Kevin,Kevin!!!!!!!!!!!, I totally get it. I understand how you feel, and I've been there too. It's crazy that I'm saying this it's crazy hearing this from me but but your someone I look up to,You've got to keep going, Kevvv,If not for anyone else, do it for me🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I need you to keep pushing forward. You'll keep going, I'll live for you, and for myself. You're stronger than you think, and I believe in you.....
Fr I know how this all feels , been there a million times 🥺🥺, did stupid things out of impluse,I tired to do so many stupid things and I regret it okay.
Fineee kevvvvv,if I tell my parents about what I did ,would it make you happy,fineeee I'll tell someone I promise just don't *** give up on me okayyy you hear me kev
I'm so stupid😭😭😭,sm so *** stupid 😭😭
I'm soooooo damn stupid
@littleNini16
ure not stupid.. i am..
i rlly hope u did tell someone..
hellou buddy, im here to check on u,<3 how u holding up?
sending hugs and cookies ur way:)
stay safe💙 and tc
@SyriusSystem
Id to be honest but I guess,am still in here ,how are you holding up?
*Noms on the cookies* yummmmmmm yummmmmmm.
*Hugs tightly*
@littleNini16
still here too, fightin with my conscious
*hugs tightlyy*
@SyriusSystem
hiiiiihiiiiihiiiiii kevvvvvv, just checking in how are you doing?
@littleNini16
hellou hellouu niniii 0^0 doin same as always
how r u doin? and also here, got u some left over lasagna *gives big bowl of cold lasagna*XD hehehe
yk what? i made a decision yesterday, imma go back to bein my old self0o0 so u dont gotta worry bout me^^
how was ur day? do anythin fun today?
my day was borin, got a check up done today and another transfusion got done, yk all the borin hospitl stuff😮💨
anywhoo, thanks for checkin in<3<3
luv yaa *big hugsss*💗
@SyriusSystem
Awwwwwww, kevvvvvv!! *Big hugs back*
Yaaaaaaaaaay, I'm so happy to hear you're going back to being your amazing self,You got thissssssss.......
Thanks for the delicious lasagna - you know I love it even though it's cold hehehe *puts the cold lasagna in the microwave* XDDDDD
Sorry to hear your day was boring, but glad you got your check-up and transfusion done. You're strong and capable and me is so proudddddd of you 🥳🥳🥳
My day was pretty chill ,my finals results came out yesterday,I made 8 subjects but I got a D7 in literature,which is bad 😭😭😭,but I decided to take the university entrance exam next month I realized I wanted to know how university feels like even if though it's not gonna be long,I just wanna have a feel of university live ,then I had fun today my bro was really nice to me because I got a D7 in literature and he cheered me up but I messed up I told him he stinked and needed to shower and now he isn't talking to me 🥺🥺🥺,but he'll come around i hope sooooo ,I love my stinky broooooo even though he stinks lamooooo. ...
Take care, and don't hesitate to reach out when you need anything,lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeee ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Duckyyyyyyyy what grade are you in ?
Oooh and when is your birthday??
Sending you lots of love, hugs, and positive vibes.
Ooh I forgot to off the microwave*turns off the microwave and share the left over hot lasagna* Hehe
@littleNini16
im not amazing at all lmaoo😅 im glad u had a chill dayy and its also pretty cool that u still managed to pass 8 classes0^0 better than i couldve done frrr
i dont go to school:3 but i think we in 10th gradee😬, if u takin uni entrance exame does that mean ur like, in 11th?0o0 nini oldieee, im scared of uni tbhXD all those lectures and classess, but i wish u gl, if anyone can get in then its u ^^
i think ur bro went to take a very very long showerr XDDD and alot of deodorant in the process tooo XDDDD
thankyuu for the lasagnaaa*even tho i already had plenty yesterday* ill eat moree😋
sending huge hugsss<3<3
@SyriusSystem
almost forgorr :3 i dont rlly have a bd since yk im an alter and all, but if i did have a bd it would prolly be june 5th cause it feels right(; hbu? whens urs?
@SyriusSystem
LMAO, Kevv, I'm not an oldie, I'm 16 I finished Grade 12 in July this year though, and my schooling system is just a bit different from yours, if your wondering how did I finish highschool quickly it's because I got a double promotion,I skipped two grades I kind of got extra credit in all my subject and the principal gave me a double promotion and she told my parents that I could do more than that and that I was smart 😅😅, which is Soo not true frrr I'm not that smart am a dum dum am sure those extra credit where just my luck 🍀🍀 and I'm kind of taking the uni entrance exams early ........ Don't sell yourself short kevvvv frrrrr you're amazing in your own way,you don't just see it 😊😊.
Your world means a lot to me and frrr am gonnaaaaa ace this exam and my bestieeeeeeeeee proud of me 😅😅,then he won't be scared of uni anymore ,I get it fr the lectures are gonna be muchhh ,and a bunch of boring stuff which I don't really like,but a girls gonna do what a girls gonna dooo.
Wow 10 th grade guess you're still little 😝😝
Haha, my bro had a real long shower and deodorant extravaganza,now he's back to bugging me and I told him he looks like a gorilla in human form,I need to stop been mean for real, but I can't he rarely jokes with me this is like a once in a lifetime opportunity,am gonna keep looking for his trouble,if I don't reply he probably threw me out the window or something,just joking though😝😅
Enjoy the lasagna, and don't worry about having some already there's always room for more .....
Huge hugs back atcha
Sozz I didn't know you didn't have a birthday ,but that's really cool about your hypothetical birthday being June 5th - it's a special day either way,mine is march 21st I'll be 17 ,smhhh am getting older 😅 ,do you age kevvv? If so how old are you?
We can also share my birthday XDDDDDDDD .
Did I tell you that your my bestestttttttttttttttttt bestieeeeeeeeee?
Did I also tell you that I loved you today?
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu 💜 💜
@SyriusSystem
LMAO, Kevv, I'm not an oldie, I'm 16 I finished Grade 12 in July this year though, and my schooling system is just a bit different from yours, if your wondering how did I finish highschool quickly it's because I got a double promotion,I skipped two grades I kind of got extra credit in all my subject and the principal gave me a double promotion and she told my parents that I could do more than that and that I was smart 😅😅, which is Soo not true frrr I'm not that smart am a dum dum am sure those extra credit where just my luck 🍀🍀 and I'm kind of taking the uni entrance exams early ........ Don't sell yourself short kevvvv frrrrr you're amazing in your own way,you don't just see it 😊😊.
Your world means a lot to me and frrr am gonnaaaaa ace this exam and my bestieeeeeeeeee proud of me 😅😅,then he won't be scared of uni anymore ,I get it fr the lectures are gonna be muchhh ,and a bunch of boring stuff which I don't really like,but a girls gonna do what a girls gonna dooo.
Wow 10 th grade guess you're still little 😝😝
Haha, my bro had a real long shower and deodorant extravaganza,now he's back to bugging me and I told him he looks like a gorilla in human form,I need to stop been mean for real, but I can't he rarely jokes with me this is like a once in a lifetime opportunity,am gonna keep looking for his trouble,if I don't reply he probably threw me out the window or something,just joking though😝😅
Enjoy the lasagna, and don't worry about having some already there's always room for more .....
Huge hugs back atcha
Sozz I didn't know you didn't have a birthday ,but that's really cool about your hypothetical birthday being June 5th - it's a special day either way,mine is march 21st I'll be 17 ,smhhh am getting older 😅 ,do you age kevvv? If so how old are you?
We can also share my birthday XDDDDDDDD .
Did I tell you that your my bestestttttttttttttttttt bestieeeeeeeeee?
Did I also tell you that I loved you today?
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv youuuuuuuuuuu 💜 💜
@littleNini16
it sent twiceee XDDDD and see? i knew u were smartt i could smell it from the screeen0^0
well flap my feather jackss, i didnt know lil ducky could be a meanieXDDDD but dw brothers gotta be put in their placeee frfr, u gotta show him whos boss, gurl power *** XDDDD
as for my agee, as i see it ive always been 170^0 so i guess u could say i dont age? but for others like spencer, they age then dont, its some complicated stuff that even i doont understand till now 0o0
and im not littlee im litrly 1 year olser than uu😝 id also love to share a bd with uu duckyy
u didnt tell me that im ur bestest bestie🥺 but now i knoww(: ure also my bestest bestieee, irreplaceablee, honestly when i first came on here it was like a sort of "imma go check this place out maybe have some fun here and there" kinda stuff
but i found a real wholesome buddyy heree, and im gladdd0^0 u also told me u loved mee and i say to that
like wiseee<3<3 i hope uni isnt that boringg, u go gurl, imma be cheerin u on the whole journeyy🥳🥳
