For @Macylou82 & me *No lurking or upvoting plz*
@bloom006 Aww thx
@Macylou82 so, did u eat today?
@bloom006 Lol no its only 9:30am
@Macylou82 well, time for breakfast, dont u think?
@bloom006 Nah, Maybe dinner I dunno
@Macylou82 u skipped that too?
@bloom006 No I ate dinner, actually 1 1/2 of dinner yesterday, but maybe I will just eat dinner today
@Macylou82thats good
@bloom006 That im not eating bc im not forced to? I wouldn't call that good lol
@Macylou82no that u at least ate smth and will eat tonight
@bloom006 No promises that im eating tonight, maybe I'll lie and say I ate earlier and im full, prob not but maybe.
@Macylou82I'll pray that u fall in love with food and eat like crazy
@bloom006 I wish, I used to love food bro it makes me sad that I struggle just to eat even a lil nowadays
@Macylou82did anything in particular happen that made u stop liking food?
@bloom006 Not really, and I love food I just cannot eat im never hungry anymore, i think I might be anorexic but I don't have all the signs its confusing.
@Macylou82how exactly do u feel when you're told to eat?
@bloom006 I feel guilty bc thats a basic human feature to eat, then that makes me depressed and its a spiral. Im getting pretty good at forcing down 1-2 meals a day but Ik im gaining weight and that again just makes me more depressed. I *** hate it and just wanna be normal, not broken
@Macylou82so, gaining weight frustrates you even when you're not eating much?
@bloom006 Don't be sorry im a broken mess. Yea I dunno why but part of my sick mind thinks its best if my ribs show and feels guilty when I look at myself in the mirror, but the other part of my mind is happy that im gaining weight and that I have the perfect body, not too skinny but not too fat. I *** hate it, why am I so *** broken
@Macylou82 don't beat yourself up macy it's not your fault that you got broken but im sure you're trying your best im sure youll get better soon dw
@Macylou82btw, new pfp it looks nice
@bloom006 Aw thx, yea ppl were getting me and someone mixed up so I changed mine so it would be easier
@Macylou82 I'll scream at u here if u dont eat
@bloom006 hey. Y I can’t send a message in support room?