A space for kyler and optimistic
Hey @Optimisticempath heres our little space hope i tagged you right....
[Note for everyone else- Please don't read, upvote/ like or reply to any posts in this thread, thank you]
@kylersartpace
yes it worked <3 thank you for giving us a chance <3 your really brave for trying you know
it's night for me already.. how is your day going?
@Optimisticempath
Night here aswell...day hasnt been the best....
@kylersartpace you wanna talk about your day? :( me gets it's not easy talking to someone new ... but you can feel safe here and share anything anytime ... when you feel comfy ..
night for you too :0 you wanna sleep soon?
@Optimisticempath
Wish i could sleep soon....its not that later here...and been really sick....but have to do stuff...
@kylersartpace oh being sick really sucks :( you took meds? please take care of you ... maybe something warm to nom will be nice? or soup? if you like..
hope you could rest soon <3
the reply button poof so ...
oh im so sorry if i said something wrong... is food related topic not ok? me will remember... you can always mention of any triggers or uncomfy stuff so me can be careful ...
it sucks your family doesn't seem to care ... 😔 being forced out of bed when you wanna lie down and feeling sick is not ok :( wish they could understand :(
if you wanna lye down now? ... you can even for few minutes ... before you need to do stuff .
@Optimisticempath
No its ok...food is a bit iffy talking about but its fine...as for lying down....i cant...im not at home....and wont be home for a little bit...then ill lye down for the night....
@kylersartpace
heyy im thinking of youu <3 how are you doing today? you getting some rest? i hope
@Optimisticempath
today has been so draining...even though ive only been up for 2hrs really....and then the fireworks tonight are gonna really bug me and overwhelm me...
@kylersartpace
the fireworks for? new year's? :0 they can overwhelming for sure :(
how is new year so far for you?
im not doing really ok.. just trying to be ok
@Optimisticempath
here if u need to talk
@Optimisticempath
hey...been a bit...
@kylersartpace hi sorry only logged in today ... how are you today friend?
@Optimisticempath
not the best...hru
@kylersartpace yeah not very ok either ... just hoping to sleep soon :/
something you wanna share? hope your fever is gone <3 how is you doing?
@Optimisticempath
just...tired of being bullied on cups...
@kylersartpace on cups? 🥺 that would feel so horrible ... when cups is supposed to be safe place :( what happened friend? you wanna talk about it?
also did you report people being unsupportive and bullying towards you?
@Optimisticempath
yeah...on cups...and yeah reported twice...
@kylersartpace hope they get feedback to improve or something :( if it's in rooms you can mute them in future :/ I hope they dont trouble you again... you deserve feeling safe and respected too <3
@Optimisticempath
i dont feel safe...
@kylersartpace
what happened? can you share more? me won't judge ever <3 it's a safe space for you to talk always <3
can I ask what do you mean by going away for long time kyler friend? me is worried ... but because me cares... is it ok to say that? ...im so sorry if not but i really hope your ok :( sends luvvvss if ok
@Optimisticempath
nvm...none of it matters...
@kylersartpace Idk about anything else but you do matter and your feelings matter too <3
the reply button keeps confusing me...making a new post here
ah it sounds scary .... :( you feeling safe now buddy?
@kylersartpace keep holding tight 🥺 if ok to ask, does kyler friend have any comfy objects? like a comfy blanket or music or maybe some hobby you find comforting and safe? what are these and how do you feel about trying them?
@Optimisticempath
i have reading and art as hobbies...and i have teddys...
@kylersartpace reading and art are really nice hobbies... what do you like reading most and what kind of art you like to create?
I luv teddies 🥰 do they have names?
@Optimisticempath
i wanna talk...i wanna just start saying everything thats wrong..but i cant...
@kylersartpace
it can be difficult me knows:(
you can just try throwing some words together if ok kyler friend ... it's ok to let it out and im here to support as much as me can <3
@Optimisticempath
im scared....what if some1...like...some1 else responds to it...and stuff...
@kylersartpace
i really understand that fear friend :( we can request someone with forum edit ability to add in the post for nobody else to read or comment to us in this thread...if that might help a little?
idk what else might work... other than just hoping no one else reads and responds to our conversation 😅
@Optimisticempath
idk anyone....but ok...
@kylersartpace me knows a safe person they are v helpful with forums ...will ask them to add notice <3
@Optimisticempath
ok...tnx...
i feel like i messed up big time...
@kylersartpace what happened friend?
@Optimisticempath
idk how to explain it...everythings a lot for me...and i just...i have the urge to just lock myself away...so no1 can contact me...
@kylersartpace me can relate with it.. being locked out from the world .. :( you can take your time kyler friend <3
@Optimisticempath
thats the thing...a lot of me wants to...but i also dont...if i lock myself away now....idk if ill ever come back...
@kylersartpace what makes you wanna lock away if ok to ask kyler friend?🥺
@Optimisticempath
just so much happening in my life...
@kylersartpace sounds very overwhelming :( you wanna share more?
@Optimisticempath
tw/sh fighting...
this week...i had 2 interviews...for marks for college...then come today...find out i have an interview for college...next week...not the 1 i want to go to but yeah...but i have exams all next week...so i had to email 2 teachers to try change 1 of my exams so i dont miss it...and i havent studied at all for the exams...because i cant...and after that...i have a week of no school....
then along with all that school stuff...i reconnected...with 3 old friends...idk if i should be happy about it or not...
i also relapsed last night...and the pain is really bad...still...
and then...my parents keep fighting and shouting at me...i cant cry or anything or ill be made fun of...
i also feel as though im loosing people in my life aswell...which i cant deal with....
@kylersartpace
sounds like a lot kyler friend.. i see why you'd rather be locked up and not having to deal with any of this stress and negativity.. we can all use breaks sometimes...
how did the interview go? i hope the upcoming ones go well too.. exams can be so stressful.. what is stopping you from studying friend?
you got this <3
how did it feel when you were with these friends? it's ok to feel happy and nice too.. you deserve being around nice people and friends
aw im sorry it's painful :( you did some first aid, yeah? please be gentle with yourself friend 🥺
it breaks my heart to know your parents treat you so unfairly 😔 you should be allowed to express how you feel in safe place not worrying about being made fun of.. :(
it's ok to cry ... me here with you <3<3
@Optimisticempath
i dont think it went well...i repeated myself many times with the questions asked...and 1 i dont think i even answered it right....
cant study because brain cant focus on it....
idk how it went being with them...its hard talking to them again...because idk where to stop...
i made it stop bleeding...thats as far as first aid i can do...
and i really cant cry...or my parents will make fun of me....no matter how much im dealing with....
also...dealing with bullying and stuff...
and my class were saying they wanted us all to go out after our mocks finish next friday...drinking...like alcohol...a really bad trigger for me.....
but i dont think they wanted me there anyway....because they never asked if i was going and stuff....