@bluelemon6419 ! Trying to talk to you and set up communication
@bluelemon6419 sorry I’m not sleeping but i found a glitch in the matrix! I’d like to continue our conversation.
I did try sleeping and have utilised methods that will kick in soon. Glad and hopeful though since stumbling on a place I’d have thought wouldn’t be permitted.
Hey Holly and Sun!
Just giving you guys a shout. Be well and I hope today goes well for you. I have my appointment tomorrow and will keep you updated. 💛
@blueLemon6419
how did it go today?
How you feeling?
idk how to get in contact with you other than via here so hope to see you around soon.
@LabeledBPD
Hey Holly, I just logged on to look for you. Today was draining but she is really really nice. She took her time explaining things and how it would work and how she's going to be giving me homework. I like her a lot. It felt like an interrogation for some parts but I think she will be a good fit. I feel really tired and a bit overwhelmed by everything but I think it's a good step for me. I spent some time with my friend after and I just cried a lot but it wasn't awkward. I go again next week so I just need to get my head settled for that. Thank you for checking in.
@blueLemon6419 same time next week, if not beforehand.
I couldn’t actually quantify how many mental health professionals I’ve interacted with, what stands out though is the one or two that are comfortable to be around yet dedicated in their ultimate goal. Make you a better off human.
i get the feeling from what you have said and how it went that you are engaging with such an individual. It’s so nice to hear it’s worked out like this. Week one and you are already at ease in difficult moments of crying around others, have goals of areas to be worked on and helped, have clear and rational homework and expectations. That’s so promising.
Are you prepared to do the work required blue?
🫂🫂💙❤️. So glad all went well. You did enter today slightly different. Much more wise and grounded with a balanced and mature outlook.
Idk what it was exactly but , it’s my interpretation.
the therapist i hope continues to be a source of progression in your life. You being so open with a stranger 🫂. This is all really nice to hear. 🙂
it throws you when a therapist or some psychological professional is so driven without getting caught up in the every day issues. I have confidence that she’s going for the dysfunctional issues and setting those as goals to work on. It’s not the most relationship creating dynamic but they one that results in the best outcome of progression.
Was thinking about you today and when mind permitting I was wondering what time a day it is for you, if you’ve been and how it’s going. Im happy I’ve met you and hope that we can support one another’s journey with the goal of becoming where we want to be. It’s insane we from different sides of the globe but you mean so much to me and yes our usage may decline and we interact less at we better our lives but it will definitely be something I look fondly on with pride. Until then blue🫂 thank you for being a part of this community
It was good seeing you today even if just in passing. I hope your day went well and Im always rooting for you. I hope you get some sleep over the weekend as well. Love you Holly❤️
Sun I hope you are ok. Monday is long past and I remember you had work with the dude. Im thinking of you and I wish for peace for all of us. Love you Sun💛
@blueLemon6419
blue it’s always such a pleasure to see you around and everyone else thinks so also. You are so caring and wise.
Couldn’t help feeling you are to kind to me though.
You articulate so intellectually with such caring . Mod blue in disguise.
i love you blue ❤️
I don’t think I’m a very good place right now.
@LabeledBPD I love you too Holly💛 rooting for a better Sunday for you. For all of us really. Keep your head up Holly🥰
Blue I’m really *** losing it. Spellcheck I can’t even blame as so random and yet coherent.
I messaged my friend as to the brand of doll clothes she mentioned her daughter would like for Christmas. My friend replied. My reply, it scares me. Why did I type this?
You like my new lodger? Idk where we gonna put him but . I’d say ah thank you reborn 🙂
i don’t even recall sending anything odd just thanks for reminding me. About an hour ago when she replied in confusion, a message I’ve just checked now it’s frightening. Why would I say that? New lodger… WTAF!
Huh? What new lodger? That reborn looks mad tho na I’m a have nightmares at night lol
it’s not funny and I’m glad she’s just skimming over the fact. This is truly gut wrenching as idk if you’ve experienced it, it’s the absolute worst to face mental issues you have no control over and are 100% in the text book of crazy. Things so outlandish and outright insane (my opinion) have been extremely rare, once maybe twice but this I hope is not a premonition. I disregarded the others as a one off and something must have caused it but WTAF
I can even begin to see how or where I was coming from but mistakenly said what I have.
talk about anxiety, I don’t feel it often and definitely not bad, right now it’s either fear or both. It doesn’t feel good
@LabeledBPD
i have nowhere to turn and am unable to admit this in my everyday life, I’ve so much I’d lose and people already exploit so , it’s just is what it is and hope it’s something you can explain that can be prevented from happening again.
@LabeledBPD I hope you get some rest Holly💛
@labeledbpd
Second appointment today. I will keep you updated. I hope your day is going well.