OCD Chat
Hey guys, I'm making this thread so that anyone and everyone has a place to talk about and ask questions about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I hope you will all enjoy talking in this forum!!
Hi Everyone,
I am new to understanding OCD and ive been dealing with something lately. I am constantly up and down about my feelings for my boyfriend. Hes great, hes a lot of what I want in a partner, and he makes me happy, but I can't shake a feeling that something is missing. Any chance this is OCD? and If so, how do I determine OCD vs a gut feeling?
@amiableCurrent6758 What exactly is making you doubt your partner? I think doubtful feelings are pretty normal in any relationship, but you obviously feel like something is off because you posted in these forums, instead of a relationship forum. Can you be more specific about what you think is missing? Is it just a feeling, or is there something more specific?
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Anyone suffering from pure o? I found myself having this about a year ago and it tends to come in waves. Some days and months Im great and then others Im miserable. The anxiety from these intrusive thoughts make me feel horrible and the pain its causing is getting beyond bareable. The intrusive thoughts are about hurting myself or the people around me and when I first started having them I about lost my mind. Theres no way I would ever hurt anyone or the people I love and these thoughts made me feel like the devil. I find comfort in knowing that Im not the only one suffering from this, and that its not just me going crazy, but the thoughts always return and sometimes with a vengeance. I know what its like to deal with this silently, not knowing what it is, so if this can help anyone out there thats great. If anyone has the same feelings and would like to talk please feel free!
@Epocd I have this exact thing. I'm traveling today, but once I get back to a keyboard I want to write you a longer post. Lol these stupid iPhone keyboards...
Hang in there.
@Blinkk look forward to it, thank you!
@Epocd Yaaaaas I got back. Okay, I'm sitting at a keyboard now.
Ugh, I feel just like you. Mine started about a year ago. I was seeing a therapist for something else, and he noticed these weird Pure-O symptoms in me. We are pretty sure I've always had OCD since I was a kid, but it's always been harmless stuff so it's gone unnoticed. Something really stressful happened about a year ago, and it triggered the evil side of OCD.
I deal with very violent thoughts and horrible sexual thoughts. Mine are targeted towards myself, and people that I love and care about. When these thoughts come, they are all encompassing. It's like, I can't even focus on a conversation because this violent thing is "happening" to the person in front of me. It gets so bad that I can't really concentrate on reality. I have to deal with this bizarre event that my brain is making up.
I know what you mean about being a silent sufferer. My therapist tells me that it's good that these terrible thoughts freak me out. He says it shows that I'm of a good moral value. I don't know if that helps your or not, but the fact that these things frighten you THAT MUCH means that you are not evil. Actually, you're the opposite of evil. You're a really, really good person. It proves that you aren't attracted to violence, and in a world where we have school shootings and bombings, we need more people who find violence repulsive. I'm not sure how much that helps, because I know while these bad thoughts are happening, it's absolutely terrifying. Man, I get it, I get it.
What do you do when you're on a bad month? How do you cope with that stuff?
@Blinkk Its great to hear I
@Epocd oh no, I'm so sorry to hear that you have to cry it out. :( What you're going through must be really heavy. I'm so sorry. I'm glad you started watching videos that make you feel like you're not alone. I think that's a big part of this; feeling like you're the only one. I have looked into OCD or anxiety support groups in my area, but they're not really what I'm looking for. If you have some cool support groups near you, it might be worth checking out a meeting or two.
I know exactly what you mean when you say you lost connection with your loved ones. Uggh, it's so frustrating. It's hard because you can't really explain it. At least I don't. I haven't told anyone in my family or any of friends. It's a very bizarre thing for someone to try to understand. I just don't want to deal with them knowing. But it makes me feel distanced from everybody.
Yeah, I have a very weird and specific thing that makes it really terrible for me. Like I said, I went through a nasty event a little over a year ago. Now, whenever I'm in a closed or locked room with another person, my violent thoughts go wild. It totally has to do with this other event that happened. The other thing that freaks me out is if someone leans in too close into my personal space uninvited. That triggers a bomb of bad thoughts to go off. Ugh. But other times, it's totally random. Like last week, I met a girl who I really liked. She was really really cool and we weren't in any closed spaces at all. I was really happy because we got along so well. I thought we could be good friends if we hung out more. And then BAM - I got hit with a nasty, nasty image that just wouldn't freakin go away. I couldn't even concentrate on our conversation. I felt like she knew I was thinking these horrible things about her and I wanted to leave as quickly as I could. ...but that would've seemed insane because we were having such a good time.
Something that helps me is to play mind games with myself. I have a bunch of hobbies, like playing guitar and throwing knives. Ever since this stupid OCD thing came up, I got pretty hardcore about my hobbies. I started taking these intensive death metal guitar lessons. Not because Ilike the genre, but because I need my brain to focus on something reallllllllllly difficult. If I'm having a bad OCD day, I've got my wicked hard scales and solos to practice. It actually helps a lot. I have to practice something that's so difficult, it eats up 100% of my focus. That way, there's no room to focus on violent thoughts. If my guitar isn't around, I do this super dorky thing where I memorize poetry. Again, if I'm having a bad OCD day, I will recite the 25 poems I have memorized. I just do it in my head, so nobody thinks I'm weird or crazy as I sit there and quietly mutter poetry to myself. I have to do something really challenging, so my brain can focus on something else for awhile. Weirdly enough, I'm thinking about getting a Playstation, so if I had a shitty day, I can just chill on a game for awhile. lol which is funny to me, because everyone says gamers are lazy and unmotivated. Imagine if I told someone I was getting a gaming system for my mental health. I'd be laughed out of existence. :D
Aside from watching videos, is there anything else you've tried that helps you? Even just a little bit?
