Struggling With Extreme Loneliness
So I've been feeling extremely lonely lately. I'm starting to believe that I'm going to have to learn to be alone for the rest of my life. I am 35 and I truly believe because of everything that has happened in the past two years are because of this. I'm not going into detail here since my story has been shared in other communities and it can be intense and a trigger warning to others but I will say is once people find the truth about me they leave me. I have nobody except homophobic family members whom I'm not even out to or feel like I can ever come out to. I feel abandoned by the lgbtq+ community. Yesterday I had to text a crisis hotline twice and I even sent to two different advice columinists how to learn to be alone (without family, community and a partner) and be okay with that. They haven't replied back. I unfollowed lesbian instagram couples as seeing people being happy just depresses me. I wish I didn't feel this way. People on those hotlines keep telling me to not give up or it will get better. I hate hearing those phrases, I'm 35 not a a 15 year old where their future will be better than mine.