(Disappointed vent) Why is it so hard to be social on campus :-(
I’m so disappointed. I really want to join student organizations and clubs this semester and meet people, especially other people in the LGBTQ+ community on my campus. Every single semester, it’s been so difficult, and even this semester, I’m on campus 3-4 days a week, and the day the LGBTQ+ student organization picks to meet every week is the one day I’m not on campus :-( I can’t just drive over because I live with my parents and they don’t know I’m a lesbian and they’ll want me to stay home that day since I was gone for 4 days, and I’ll have so much homework to do. Plus, the LGBTQ+ organization meeting is the only event happening at that specific time, so if I say I’m driving up to campus for something and they check what it is, they’ll know. And the other student organization I was interested in joining is meeting when I’m at work or in class :-( I really want to meet people because this is one of my last semesters on campus but it’s so difficult. If I didn’t live so far away or with my parents it would be so much easier but that won’t be for years.
I’m not completely without hope, I’m going to try reaching out to both student organizations I wanted to join to ask if there’s any way I can still be involved, but this just hurts and I just feel crushed. It just feels like it wasn’t meant to be but I feel so alone all the time and I’ve heard all kinds of things about how hard it is to meet people and make friends after you graduate. Just hurts and I don’t really know what to do :-(