I want to be trans, but I'm very unsure
Hello, my name real name is Benjamin, I'm a guy that has been struggling with my identity my whole life, I have always have had some tendencies of what would be normally considered of the female gender, but I don't really feel uncomfortable being a man.. Well until recently.. Nowadays I found myself unable to express myself like I would really want, I feel like I want to sing, I want to wear dresses, I want to dance, I want people to find me pretty for once in my life, I want to be able to let my guard down for once in my life and be myself... I feel that to be myself, becoming trans would really help me, as many of my desires are not expected from my current gender. Still, I'm not sure if it's the right call, for one side it may help me be myself and give me the confidence I desperately need to keep going forward in my life.. But on the other hand, it would change my life forever, and how others see me.. It may be even harder for me to find someone to love.. I don't want to change genders only to go back either, i really want to do it, but is so hard to know if it's a good decision... I feel like I could live through the social changes.. My family would support me, probably not my grandparents.. But is a risk Im willing to take.. Ok what really troubles me if I choose to change.. Is that it would be harder for me to find a family.. Even tho I want to be myself, I also want to form a family.. Sooner or later.. And even tho I haven't found someone to love yet, not even 1 experience of the sort, with 22 years.. I have the feeling it would be more difficult if I became trans.. Right now, I have much in my mind, and incredible amounts of disphoria, I'm questioning myself every day, and it feels like I'm wasting time, but I also want to be sure.. I could really use some help right now.