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ApurvaSingh123
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Your Bro Apurva. Knows a ton of languages, Bi, Physics math chem student
PathStep 15 Compassion hearts261 Forum posts90 Forum upvotes146 Current upvotes146 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2024 Member sinceMarch 5, 2023
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It's your bro Apurva. Though my username looks silly, I'll help you with almost anything related to depression / school stress / Crushes etc

The best thing is that your bro is part of every club. Be it, Studies, Gaming, LGBTQ, Cooking, etc

Your bro is harsh sometimes, But he'll help you in the best way possible!

Your bro also speaks a ton of languages,

English, Hindi, Urdu, Punjabi, Marathi

and I'm learning German too!

Hit a message and I'll help you out.

Just in case you are wondering, Im in grade 11


Recent forum posts
I'm living life like a desperate old man
Relationship Stress / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 April 25th
...See more Hi. I am a about to be 18 boy. I'm preparing for State Engineering exam. But I am feeling empty for quite some time. I do not have any good friends nor do I have good grades. Staying alone isn't new for me. Having no friends also means that I live in a delusion. This delusion is formed because of lack of social norms inside me. Well, since last month I feel extremely attracted to any girl that I see. I do not want that to happen. I am already in water, burden to my parents and a stupid guy overall. Why do I get these feelings away... Laws in my country hasn't been changed since 1980s so, even if I try to approach girls and they report me as a stalker to police, I'll be locked up for 2 years minimum. Now that I am going to be 18, things will get more hard for me. Today, in evening school bus, I had to sit with a girl due to all seats being already been taken. First I hesitated a lot but then that feelings rushed inside me. After I came home, I felt more miserable than before.  This happens in class too. My other classmates who are biology students were taking a class on fertility. Although I have nothing to do with biology because I am a Physics-Chem-Math student, I started thinking about a girlfriend unconsciously, this making me feel even more desperate. I have female classmates, but because of this, I usually sit multiple feets away.  To be honest, Neither my relatives nor my parents really like me. They're just pushing me around until I get into Uni. I don't think that girls will like me in any way. How do I stop these feelings by myself. I already journal daily yet, I feel more and more desperate each day. What should I do?
Can anybody help me to find a way to become a CEO of a Fortune 500 company?
Work & Career / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 February 1st
...See more Hello! I am a 17 year old from Himachal Pradesh, India (currently in grade 11). And here is my future plan which is decided by my south Asian parents Get a B.Tech / B.Sc (bachelors) in Computer Science from Indian Institute of Tech./ or TU Darmstadt in Germany and get a fat package in FAANG companies. But I feel that solving algos for 40 years is not my thing, As I am already not a big fan of math. I have seen that most of the CEOs are ex-McKinsey employees. So My question for now is, How do I get into McKinsey? Also: 1.MBA from Harvard is a common sight, What should I do to get that? 2. If CEO thing goes in drain, How my career would look like in McKinsey? ( I am just asking for advice. For now, My focus is on Joint Entrance Examination(JEE). But I do feel that I am kind of average) (also, My parents are not *RICH*, I mean they are, but not in USD)
How do I confirm that I am bisexual
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 June 4th
...See more I am 49.999% sure that I am bi. please help me! ALSO: I live in India and LGBT rights are nearly non existent because government removed the law which jails homosexuals 10 years ago but doesn't want to recognize anything else because it endangers Sanatani philosophy.  
I'm confused (kinda). Please Help me!
Relationship Stress / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 January 13th
...See more Hi ! I am 17 year old. 2023 was one of the most disturbing year of my life. I had depression, crushes and what not. But since December I've been working like a cog in a machine. I'm studying all day with just 4 hours of sleep Along with *** teachers who just make me more confused (I wish that I could punch him in face)  I don't enjoy my life, nor do I like it.  Now to my main thing, I had a crush. and she left me because probably I'm a weirdo. Now I feel no attraction to any girls whatsoever. Let me give you an example, recently my friend said that he thinks that girl named, say XYZ is beautiful. Then I checked her out, Well she was infact better looking. But weirdly My inner voice said that if she is beautiful, then she is probably stupid.  I feel no attraction whatsoever now. I have a female friend. And her friends are mine too. When Bunch of Incel like students came to me, One of them said that I am a "Laundiya-baaz" ie a womanizer. And I was in shock for a second. because My inner voice tells me that No girl would ever talk to me for "that". Anyways I am kind of confused. I feel lonely. despite having friends. My parents are like typical Indian/asian parents, so they don't really help me in anything. I wish that I had a gf, but then my inner voice says that " apurva, is that really important from your exam this sunday?"
How to regain mental abilities like problem solving after months of depressive episodes
Depression Support / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 March 31st
...See more I am a IIT JEE student, currently in grade 11. Even before preparing for it, I suffered with depression multiple times my life but now I think that i have learned to cope with it quite well. Now my biggest challenge is to re develop my problem solving abilities and analysis skills. Do you guys have any ideas? Any book/Thing that might help me.... Also I've recently started programming in C# and I've revisited my Physics basics with Concepts of physics by (HC Verma IIT Kharagpur Professor). In Maths I am using my Institute's material but I can't really solve most of the questions without using google lens
I just watched 'ANIMAL' movie. I'm kinda obsessed with it.
TV & Movies / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 January 3rd
...See more I Just watched "Animal," the 2023 Indian film, and it's a rollercoaster! The story centers on the Singh family, big players in the steel industry, with Ranvijay Singh Balbir at the helm, the grandson of the family's founder. The plot thickens with family drama, business rivalry, and a bit of a historical twist. The movie is intense, with the fight between Ranvijay and Abrar Haque taking a page from John Wick. Check out the Wikipedia page [ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Animal_(2023_film) ) for the full scoop—I won't spoil it for you. in a nutshell, Grandfather's brother was ousted from the business because of some reason and grandson (his name is Abrar Haque, He converted into islam and lives in Glasgow) of grandfather's brother wants to take down all of the steel business for himself as he feels that he deserves Equity in the business. He soon discovers a loop hole in Indian law that if he gets rid of the Singh family completely then he can heir the business. Now, for the quirks. Ranvijay's flaw? A bit too much loyalty to his father, to the point where he won't hear a word against him, not even from his wife. And here's where it gets strange—Ranvijay cheats on his wife to extract info. Oddly, she's cool with it, all for the sake of the billion-dollar steel company and their kids. The dude's actions are like a blend of Andrew Tate and a Punjabi-speaking German fuhrer. He's ruthless, taking down anyone in his way, even shooting up a classroom and his sister's husband. It's a wild ride, especially the Glasgow showdown, where everyone, including unborn babies, gets involved. As a 17-year-old, I dig the hyper-masculine vibe. It's like experiencing the thrill of jumping off a cl!ff without the game over. The movie definitely pushes boundaries, and if you're into that, it's worth a watch. What are your thoughts on the portrayal of characters and the intense themes?
Everything is just a mirage
Depression Support / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 March 30th
...See more Hi i am apurva. I am 17. Have you ever wondered what is unique to you? In business studies, they say "USP," i.e., Unique Selling Point. I just felt yesterday that I am a textbook example of a struggling student who is facing challenges. My mom said that I am worthless and that I waste my time. She mentioned that I am a financial burden on her. I think she might be right. She earns 38,000 rupees per month in hand and spends 15,000 rupees on me and my sister. (I live in India, so please stick with rupees without converting to USD.) My dad is also upset with me. He is unhappy with my grades and mentioned that he will consider asking me to leave the house once I am not covered by the Juvenile Protection Act of the Indian Constitution. It's a daunting statement, but according to my dad, my grandfather did the same to him and his siblings. While my dad became a professor/dean (I have no idea), my uncle (dad's brother) became a lawyer. Unfortunately, my dad's sister passed away due to pressure on her neck. Back to myself. I have no good grades, and I don't have any close friends. I had a crush, but she did not reciprocate my feelings, and now I have no interest in anyone. Nobody seems attractive to me at all. I don't know why everything has become like a blank canvas. Nothing feels cool nowadays. I also feel that nobody really enjoys my presence, and that's quite a bad feeling for me. I have a big belly and other body parts. I don't think about it much because those who want to make fun of me will do so regardless. Sometimes, I even start making fun of myself. Once, a classmate started making fun of my butt, and I told him that I really enjoy him making fun of me. He did that for a while, and when I insisted, he asked me if I was okay. I don't know if that is the right way, but I really enjoy it. Sometimes, when I feel on the edge, like I can't bear anything anymore, I usually tap my head on the wall. I don't know why it satisfies me. The more frequently I tap, the more pain arises, and my feelings fade away. One more thing: when I feel I did something wrong, I try to poke my pen into my left hand. I don't know why, but the sensation of pain makes everything fade away. I don't know if I'm going to make it to university or not. I know that I won't be able to get into any good colleges locally because I feel stupid. But thinking long-term, if I want to live like everybody else, I have to do a job or start a business. For that, I need a degree. I have seen that Germany has free education for everyone. I want to emigrate there. I have learned German. I have to tell you, Deutschland ist ein schönes Land. People help each other, while here everyone is in a sort of race. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I were dead. Really, who cares for young people anyway? The government doesn't like you, neither does the education system, nor your parents. I recently visited the home of my friend's brother. They seemed so happy, but my friend made pressure on his neck in May, and he died. But who cares? His father has five children. Sometimes it feels like everything is just a mirage made to prevent you from starting a communist revolution (LOL). I think if I end up on the road, I would rather be hit by a car than live a disgusting life. Also: Idk how is my English nowadays. please review my writing styles and suggest improvements
I'm 17. I think my previous crush is playing mind tricks on me.
Relationship Stress / by ApurvaSingh123
Last post
 October 17th, 2023
...See more Hi , about 4 months ago I had a crush on a girl. During that time my studies weren't that tough, I just enjoyed being in class. One day my friend told her that I like her. We chatted for a while but I realised that she doesn't likes me. So we both blocked each other. Now, only few months are left for the final exams. Stakes are high. Now she along with her guy friends started roaming around me. But today when I was in boys washroom, her male friends started asking me wheter I like someone or not. I said that I'm too busy in studies. I also observed that she started panicking out when I was asking question to my friend and she was standing right behind me I just want to say I STILL like her, buttt I need to study otherwise I will be f#cked up. I think I should keep her as casual as possible to focus on studies
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