compassionateOak202's One Line A Day Thread

05/06/2023

Today felt a bit more joyful. Got to spend some time with my partner, played a game for one last time, received another image quote from my therapist, spending some time in the sharing circle as well as attending my online recovery meeting on this chill Saturday. (❁´ω`❁)

05/07/2023 (late entry again!)

It was a chill and slightly warm day. I took a nap in the afternoon, then later in the evening volunteered to host at SC for 2 sessions straight 😊. Then after that around midnight, I hopped over to the Positivity Corner and met a few old and new members 💖.

05/08/2023 Monday

Hosted back-to-back sessions at the Sharing Circle earlier today! It was a bit hectic but I managed to pull through 😊. The weather is also getting warmer at where I live.

05/09/2023 Tuesday

it's that time of the month... and my moods are going up and down like a rapid wave...

Full moon fever?

@adaptableOcean4193 maybe! with the addition of these cramps hahaha

@compassionateOak202

I understand too well. I hope they are gone now and you are feeling much better.

@adaptableOcean4193 I hope so too. I think it's also affecting my moods and my resilience seems fragile at the moment. But I've been feeling okay now.

@compassionateOak202

My silly stroke brain argh! I posted this in the wrong place but it is for you.

My grandfather was the person who has most helped in my lifetime. He is no longer here and he knows the love and thankfulness I have for him. My sisters and my daughters were there for me at my worst points during hospitalization and shortly after. And the people here have really made a difference in my life as I'm recovering. Most especially @compassionateoak202, The fact that you are sharing your journey and trusting us with your vulnerability, at the same time you are encouraging and helping others. You are an inspiration.

@adaptableOcean4193 I don't know where to reply but I'll reply it here so I can always look back into it!

You're an amazing special friend I've met here in 7cups, Ocean! I don't know what else to say. I'm always glad to see you around the forums. I will always continue to appreciate you being around here. You've also helped me. So I thank you. 💖💖💖💖💖

05/10/2023

Continuing to be more grateful for today, and trying to not give in to my intrusive thoughts. I think that's all I can say.

05/11/2023

I finally did laundry today after more than a month. I've also had my 2nd session with my therapist. I look forward to meeting him again soon in-person when I visit my home country next month 😊.

05/12/2023

Gave my mother and myself another weekly foot scrub today! I've also helped out the Sharing Circle, and caught up re-watching a Disney Channel movie.

05/13/2023

I finally played a game for 1st time today (Life is Strange: True Colors), with my bf watching me through screen sharing. It only lasted an hour and we were barely halfway into the first chapter. My bf got cut off by his internet sadly 😭. But that moment when I played again with someone made me happy today.

05/14/2023

Happy Mothers’ Day to all kinds of mothers out there! My mom isn’t feeling well today so she is staying home for the night. Had some strawberry ice cream today! 🍓🍦

05/15/2023

My partner made my mom happy today by telling her what food and delicacies we'll get to eat when we visit our country and meet his family this summer. (◕ᴗ◕✿)

05/16/2023

Found a game called Mindustry and I can't seem to stop playing.

05/17/2023

I booked 2 more online sessions with my therapist, which is enough before my trip in a few weeks. Today, I'm grateful l to have my support network.

testing reply thread since I can't seem to post a new entry today. hmmm....

05/18/2023

Today, I got to keep my sister company while she studies via video call. I also decided to try something new in 7cups today! 😊 hehehe

hint: I'm learning more about active listening.

05/19/2023 Friday

Today marks 2 years since my grandfather's passing.

05/20/2023

It's been almost a week and my right ear is still muffled, which prevents me from hearing clearly from one side.

@compassionateOak202

sounds like a rough couple of days. My grandpa was my rock and the first person who made me feel loved and know how to give it. I will bet you miss yours terribly. I am glad for the good things he likely taught you. Carry them with you, and he will always be there. I hope your hearing is better soon. Perhaps you can get medical help?

@adaptableOcean4193 I'll see if this issue continues to persist, although I'm not feeling any pain or swelling on my ear, which I used to get few years back. Hopefully it'll fade soon.

And thank you for your kind words. My grandfather was like my second father to me when my own father wasn't around. Anyway, I hope you're doing well wherever you are. 💖

05/21/2023

Today this evening I officially signed up for something new here. There's a lot I can actually learn from there 😮. Hopefully the journey's worthwhile! 😊

05/22/2023 Monday

Day 1 of being a listener and it was really rough 😔. Got shamed when I used my L account to host a sharing circle today because it was so active and hectic and later had 2 rough chats, one them criticizing me for not asking questions when I already gave them space to talk about what they're going through. I miss talking to my long term listener 😞.

@compassionateOak202 Hey :) Hope you don't mind. I saw when you hosted in the sharing circle. With everything that was going on with the troll and as many people that were there. Hosting chats isn't an easy job but you did really good. And with listening that takes time too. Try to be gentle with your thoughts - you'll get the hang of it! ❤️

@mytwistedsoul Thank you very much for your kind response 😊. I appreciate it a lot.

05/23/2023 Tuesday

Today was a much better day. I received a lot of support and I didn't feel as down as I was yesterday. Continued to attend my recovery group as well as some readings. 😊

05/24/2023 Thursday

It was a good day today. I was able to go through 2 chat sessions when I originally planned one, did some more readings on the trainings, and attended my recovery program meeting and 1-1 peer support chat 😊

i realized I made a mistake! this is supposed to be wednesday, not Thursday!

05/25/2023

Had my 3rd therapy session this evening, which turned out great. But most of the day today, I spent time streaming tv shows and movies with my sister, who is currently studying abroad. I miss her.

05/26/2023

Finally set a date to meet my best friend from college after 4 years since we've graduated together back in my home country. I miss her so much. And I can't wait to tell her everything that I've been through - my crisis, recovery, therapy, etc. 💙

05/27/2023

Felt a bit sad today while looking back at my old art. I'm starting to realize the best course for me is to start everything over from a brand new slate...

05/28/2023 (I skipped a day! woops)

I was still continuing to reflect on this feeling of wanting to start everything over. Build my image from the ground up again as an artist. At least this time it'll be from a new perspective.

05/29/2023

My sister is going through loneliness and anxiety. I've accompanied her through video chatting, so we get to watch some movies together. I can't wait to see her again soon.

05/30/2023

May's already ending? I really did lost track of time! 😅 lol

05/31/2023

I am able to conclude this month with a new journal reflection 😌💙. I'm very grateful to be here. Looking forward to June! 😊