12-22-2k23
https://www.7cups.com/forum/journal/General_2520/8292023_311904/
It's not b/c of an imaginary pressure I'm putting on myself to review things before my nephew arrives..
on the basis of 'chronological distance' of ~+a decade, I've earned the right to revisit earlier online journalling stuff I did..
https://www.psychforums.com/blog/xod_s/how_i_can%CA%B9t_understand_the_good_of_selffulfilling_prophecies_b-3449.html
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5. Don't be afraid of how far back you have to go to embrace something to your identity from before you were as messed up.
The events of reality, in the historical sense etc, of that which happened while you were between age's 7-17, that span of 10 years or "a decade, the wide network of impacts it had, can become the ones which very much wind up embedded in your core
i.e.2029 or 2030 to 2036 or 2037 for my 'Gen Alpha' nephew
The blessing of a personal journalling track which covers more than a decade + perspectives like can help mitigate/give a firm resistant to thinking you'll succumb to senescence in terms of life/worldview and attitude instead of prevailing in the face of it.
'New batch' same vulnerabilities or insecurities..
[the last entry on my previous journal seems good enough to be the starter for this one]
I have seen AI art generators which will make your inputs look like anime characters, cubist art, certain painting styles but I've yet to see one which will 'Lego-fy' any inputs which is a pity since I've personally have found it to be one more consistent sources of fun when it comes to seeing outputs.
A tie-in for my dance lessons
Pixel art,pixel art,pixel art, I'll remind you that for those dance lessons in salsa and the other Hispano-Carribean styles listen to piano or at least instrumental (lyric-less) takes.
Comment from https://youtu.be/Otu39FUqlxQ?si=gsN0x6uN5xffxW-v
I expect to feel in a better headspace, come my sister's birthday tomorrow.
Can't make a 'cleaner edit' of the transcript part which got my attention, right now but will say how the sources is ~9:04-10:00 from here https://youtu.be/5fiMBpdYi2I?si=-APua0KbUsbUCPLJ&t=544
I will say that when it comes to being 'terminally online' there's an arguable risk in that sooner or later attributes you ascribe to yourself, you might later categorize as per stuff you come across online (and I don't only mean a new phrase or word for the personal vocabulary either). The key is to understand that ascribing yourself to it is only temporary, maybe very well only based on conditions even if it might mean your natural lifespan.
An addendum to recent (other) journal posting.
Warmth somehow comes to mind when I hear this faux vintage music:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WPXlsahEUNU&pp=ygUYc3ludGh3YXZlIHJvbWFudGljIHJhZGlv
Even if you always have the hair texture, a bowl cut and curtains are difficult to pull off into adulthood for the male presenting as pigtails might be the female presenting.
In 2022 one of the biggest food-based mis-spendings I think I made was almost ~$20 on a large yogurt container worth of alfredo sauce powder (which is still there with the relevant receipt part still taped on it, as with the notably less costly mac & cheese powder similarly underused ). For last year, at more or less double that cost I think it was a big bag of protein powder I got from Costco which appeals to me less because of the utterly unnecessary vanilla tinged sweetness which comes with it.
I kind of wonder how it would be despairingly ironic it'd be if someone were to become like pre-diabetic or such because of consistently using *sweetened* protein-based nutritional supplements.
I'm saying this w/an interest in my health.
The 'eye[lid] twitch' which happens on it's own for (I think) a lack of a relaxed, unstrained eye 'give or take dryness' is somewhat alleviated by a morning application of eyedrops around the time in which I'd apply eardrops as well. Sometime ago whilst sleeping over at my family's I'd've sworn I brought both along in a baggy but I don't know where'd I put it afterwards.
It's a bleeding drag to not know there whereabouts what with the uncomfy compromised I've'd to make the past ~2 weeks with contractors doing work in my room after the wall humidity aftermath from the sprinklers going off a floor above me. Supposedly, on the morrow it'll be there final day working within my apartment at least even if they'll still be present on hallway work come next week.
More so than today, my one eye (maybe it was my left ?, that one still feels strained even currently) was kept closed for a fair amount of my morning washroom stuff which I'd reckon to think it wouldn't were the drops to be found.
It is raining hard. The privilege of living here which was highlighted as relatives rough me off earlier rings from my mind all the more.
I've a mind to call dancing and dances, 'stepping puzzles' -- also bed cloth based laundry time.
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When you constantly look into causation as to understand what's present (as w/looking into history to understand the present contemporary), you might add up an understanding as to the etiology of things, one branch as to how the mind works and sees things in narratives or something like that.
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That part in 'Les Miserables' where Jean Valjean puts on a uniform to head despite having his own agenda out into the frenzy of the revolt Marius is involved with while worrying about what Cosette's to do ?..that'll be me, w/my own priorities and private chores, when I get update of being able to visit nephew before Valentine's/my dad's birthday we'd think.