in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
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hey guys
i hst woke up
the skl dzhsĀ
okay pause
ibe Iām going back nd ficing my mistaks but my fingers are so weird rnĀ
i shook my hand out like rlly hard it make me tired
um
anyways
the skl days already over
i woke up like an hour after the skl day passed
i asked someone where my dad is nd she ignored me twice then angrily yelled that heās at work
Ā š tf is she so mad for
nd I was like okay? I was jst asking where he is whyre u so madĀ
then I may have mocked her but like while walking away..
then smth else then left
its not even abt like oh sheās in a bad mood no bro she jst hates me smĀ
then I went back to my room
nd messaged some ppl
then literally 5 minutes after I woke up guests came š nd I text the person Iām talking to likeĀ
(these are the exact copied messages so theyāre in caps)
BROROROROOOOO GUESTS HST CANE
WHAT IS THOS I DONT WANNA SEE ANYONE
Ā šĀ
I feel like ***
am I special š I wasnāt even talking properly on the bits I thought I was šĀ
anywayss
im talking to a guy
wellĀ
I kinda always am
butĀ
not guy friend
or talking stage
or situationshipĀ
or one sided
im not being playedĀ
Iām not the one playingĀ
weāre not playing each other šĀ
I like himĀ
he likes me
Crazy.Ā
trust tho we wonāt last a weekĀ
no one lastsĀ
my guy friend asked me how many guys Iāve been with Iām like idk I stopped counting heās like like 7+? Iām like yh he called me a ***.Ā
ā¦
ābop behaviorāĀ
broĀ
the only reason Iāve been w sm guysĀ
is csĀ
I jump from guy to guy fast ik i do
but thatās cs they all suck
nd none lastĀ
I move on I mean it depends but usually I move on pretty fastĀ
I never cried for any. like I can pull any other guy u were never all that anyways šĀ
I jst realizedĀ
only one of all the guys Iāve talked to broke up w me šĀ
like
most of the timeĀ
smth happens but like I js realizedĀ
Iāve almost never let a guy be the one to break up w meĀ
thatās crazyĀ
omgĀ
oh my god
brb.
@iloveyouxx However cute you might be (there's no way I can know), it's not a major feat to pull in a guy. We are male, which you should translate as "we're not picky". Trust me on this. There are men out there who would b*ff a knothole in a fence if it wasn't rough, hard & splintery. Millions of years of evolution have made us that way.
also I got played š¤Ŗ some stupid *** prank but the guy told his friend after not to tell me cs he actually started liking me nd he wanted to continue w me
i told him wallah I wonāt tell anyone but that was before he told me
i literally went to the guy right after like bro
stop trying to *** w me
*** jst stop
nd he left me on opened
wtvĀ
idcĀ
Iāll pull another guy š¤·āāļø he canāt pull anyone bro Iām the best heāll ever get
hes ugly as ***
sorry
im jst hurt
well
idcĀ
idcĀ
wtv
its fine
okay
anyways.
mmmmmm
oh my god
i do care
i *** care
its so *** up
I *** care
im so *** mad
stop *** with me
i wasnāt in a good state
so *** *** up so *** upĀ
bro
i blocked my guy friend
he was like pls donāt be mad wtv i left him on opened
then he kept spamming nd saying things nd I kept leaving him on opened
then i got on later i was like āare u hereā he was like āyeahā Iām like āokayā āIām blocking both of uā
then he started spamming in caps like no pls wait etc
then i blocked himĀ
š¤·āāļøĀ
I donāt wanna talk to him anymoreĀ
he doesnāt go to my skl like heās not an online friend ik him irl but Iām saying like he doesnāt go to my skl so unless we had like plans or smth we donāt see each other irl that oftenĀ
so thatās goodĀ
i actually cared abt himĀ
but
ā¦
idk
i knew they were playingĀ
i jst hate it
its another level of disrespectĀ
u donāt do that nd go i said Iām sorry like u said u were sorry?Ā
sorry doesnāt do ***
āi was in the bathroom half the timeā bro it went on for like 3 hoursĀ
wtvĀ
im gnna stop thinking abt it.
Those boys weren't worth your time, little one. They aren't worth getting upset about, either. Cut 'em off & work on self-improvement instead.