in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
And once I'm in, I'm in there deep, so it gets kinda hard to breathe
I'm all alone again, my so-called friends just left me here to bleed.
Now I'm laid out on the pavement hoping someone hears me scream.
Yeah, I make bad decisions and I don't know how to grieve
And though you behaved the cruelest, I'm the one that truly loses
So for me this feels so useless, why did you have to do this to me?
So what are you supposed to do when you don't wanna wak.e up?
When you feel so *** hopeless that you just don't give a ***
Sick from being up all night, reminisce in twisted ***
Wishing I did something different, wondering why the *** I didn't
Hyperventilating 'til I have no breath left
But I'm just adding to the weight of the bricks left on my chest
The secrets eat up slowly 'til I bleed
And I hate everything I am
Because this wasn't how it's supposed to be
No one cares about me, so I don't care about tomorrow
When they say they wanna help me, it just feels like a trap
My mind is damaged, how the *** do you fix that?
Somebody once tried to tell me
Don't depend on anybody
Yet I'm begging you for help
So, won't you save me from myself?
Somebody, come save me, please
I'm reaching for your hand to hold
To let me know I'm not alone
Please anybody, try to stop me.
See I just need a minute, I don't want you to leave
But this could have been avoided had you just *** warned me
Didn't scorn me and insist to make me out like a liar
Consuming everything around me like a human torch
'Cause only then when you feel like you can't take anymore pain
Will you gain some perspective and just admit you've gone insane?
When you feel so *** hopeless that you just don't give a ***
Sick from being up all night, reminisce in twisted ***
Wishing I did something different, wondering why the *** I didn't
But I'm just adding to the weight of the bricks left on my chest
The secrets eat up slowly 'til I bleed
And I hate everything that I am because this wasn't how it's supposed to be
I shoudn't take things so serious
I don't think they mean any harm
But it would sicken you too
If it happened to you
And you had to relive every part
