a rant of some sort

i'm losing my mind.

its been a while and nothings changed. im stuck.

im tired and exhausted

i feel like nothing and the voices in my head wont shut the hell up over every damn thing i do. i cant deal with this.

i cant swear that im not suicidal but i can assure you my death wont be of my doing

i feel suffocated by my thoughts and no amount of loud music seems to shut it out.

i just wanna scream with the loudest voice i can, scream out my voice to the point im breatheless

i just want to hear silence

i just want to be able to NOT think for abit.

i desperately crave not questioning myself and every damn move of mine.