Also .. yes.. I almost died from stress today

i get hurt all the time so its fine

@amiableBunny4016

*hugs bunny if okay* 💜

tw/swear words

@amiableBunny4016

"When ur feeling down, just find a ladder" -Raky :3

Oooo oooo one moreeee
"When life gives you lemons, take the seeds, plant it, get more lemons and sell it back to life at an increased rate with tax, and use ur profit to buy a choco and eat said choco" - Raky :3333333

@RakyTacky

😃lmaoooooooo your so funnyyyyy.

@amiableBunny4016

that sounds so sarcastic sorrryyyyy 😭😭😭

@RakyTacky

naaa its not sarcasm

"When life gives you lemons, take the seeds, plant it, get more lemons and sell it back to life at an increased rate with tax, and use ur profit to buy a choco and eat said choco" - Raky :3333333"

that was actually funny. thank you for making me lauggh

oof.

@amiableBunny4016

Here with you, bunny 💜

@amiableBunny4016 I’m there, even if you don’t notice it. I’m not good with words. Hugs if ok <3

@JustMeUwU

Its 11 in the night. And I'm ... just sitting here

@amiableBunny4016

*sits with you if okay*

7cups has become that place I come back to constantly and uselessly but know that I'm alone because who gives *** yk?

And yk maybe I just have insecurities or when I see others on here I think 'well why can't I just be like @xyz' or 'im not doing a good job supporting @xyz' or something like 'no one is gonna *** like this forum '

And then on top of that my mind goes back to listeners who invalidate me even tho I know there are good people.

Am I just bring a total idiot and thinking negatively? Am I too old to hide under blankets? Am I just bring ungrateful?

Idek anymore. Like my home life doesn't make anything better so I might as well give up.

Like *** ***.. no one is left .. what do I do with myself

But yk don't worry. I know someone on here who can basically replace me ..idek what I'm doing with myself .

@amiableBunny4016

It’s true 💛

@LoveMyMoonflowers

Mhm

@amiableBunny4016

(':

I feel like a *** young selfish attention seeker

Sleeping is harder than waking up cos every time you close your eyes.. everything scares you

At this point this forum is meaningless

Like what *** have you guys learnt from this piece of trash that I post

@amiableBunny4016 I've learned that you're hurting so much. And behind the hurt is a big beautiful tender heart 💙 So kind and thoughtful and compassionate. I've learned that you're a very smart person who gives their all to people who are also hurting 💙

***

When you read other people's diary threads be like:

Man, these people are so much better than the *** person I am

Mom I hope your proud of the *** person I have become.

@amiableBunny4016What if you can become the person YOU want to be - in spite of her 💙

@mytwistedsoul

Not like she was ever proud of me

I'm going insane

Like being a 14 year old could be this difficult

When you listen to that sad depressing song on repeat because it reminds you of your trauma be like:

😭

at this point.... idek