trigger warning; death

Me: *realises how *** up I am*

7cups Friends : *your a sweet, amazing, caring , beautiful Bunny"

Bullies: *shut up and go k1ll yourself"

Family: -i have no family-

No one cares. So you dont have to give *** about me.

I know. your probably sick of this forum. sick of this place. sick of my negativity. sick of bunny. sick of her *** personality. sick of her stupidity. sick of her being such a coward. sick of me. just say it. at least it would hurt me. i might as well let it hurt more. you probably hate me. let it out. it doesnt matter how i feel. just say it. because i know how people feel on the inside.

@amiableBunny4016

i just want to say welcome back.🌈🌈🌈❤️

@Waterfallsofnature36

thank you❤️

why are some people way too nice to me T-T

@amiableBunny4016 Why not? T-T Bunny doesn't deserve anything less than niceness! ❤

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

I dont know Sun *shrugs*. Bunny is less than anything and everything.

@amiableBunny4016 aw what makes you say so? <3 *hugss*

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

I don't know what happened to Bunny. Bunny just says things to self without thinking. Bunny needs to relax.

@amiableBunny4016

Aw yes, we can always try being more mindful, specially in our self-talk. Bunny does deserve all the niceness, all there's left to do, is for bunny to accept it, and let it in, and as always, it's okay to take all the time.❤

Relaxing sounds great hehe, at times we can all use that. *breaths in and out with bunny* 😇

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

Okay, dont worry about Bunny trash.

But some Bunny loves you! Peek - a - boo!

How is Shining buddy doing :o

Also .... also... i know the pressure to be okay..... so if things go downhill just know......

But... but.... if things all okay.... i still have something for you. Bunny always saves a dance for you

Bunny

@amiableBunny4016

Aww this bunny loves the bunny reading right now also.❤ and nooo, none of it is trash, okie, you're allowed to feel and have a let out for your thoughts and emotions, no matter how confusing, difficult, overwhelming or misunderstood maybe.❤

Thankyouuu sweet bunny, love the peek-a-boo haha and ofcourse the bunny dance, always makes me smile and feel better yayy! xD *joins youu*🐰💃🏻

When you look in the mirror, what do you see? poem by me. by the ugly

And you asked me.

When you look in the mirror what do you see?

What do you truly see?

I look in the mirror.

Can't.

No. No. let go.

I cannot look.

Strange noises inside my head.

Going back to the same moment.

The same moment...

I stood in front of the same mirror.

And said the same words.

Same words he said.

Same words she said.

Same words they said.

I am ugly.

I can never be beautiful.

I am useless.

I can never be of any use.

I am a monster.

I was once a human.

Who was turned inhumane?

And I grasp on to the thought.

Holding it all along.

And inside I thought.

I see no beauty.

But only my ugly body.

My marks.

My bruises.

My darkness.

I see my heart.

Bleeding constantly.

And so I hope.

I wish.

The scars and the blood would disappear.

I see marks and lines.

I see nothing.

But myself.

The person that I hated.

The person that I would pull and drag.

The person that I would cut into.

It was only me.

Me and I

And so I do not look.

In my reflection.

Instead I close my eyes.

1.....

2......

3.......

4........

5.........

And you say....

"just say something. Helloooo, what do you see in the mirror?"

And I say.....

"I see nothing, I see a girl, a girl that has been hurt so much she doesn't bleed, a girl that hates herself so much, she doesn't look at her reflection, a girl that wants to give up. The girl you never wanted or loved. I see a girl"

And that was me.

And that was you.

My reflection slowly fades away.

And my hands closed into a fist.

I hold the hammer.

Smash the mirror.

Every piece falling.

Shattered.

Just like me.

A shattered, broken girl.

Bunny

There was billions of letters I could have wrote to the world. To myself. So.. here we go. This is a letter I've always wanted to send.

Tagging some beautiful people who have been amazing every step of the way:

@Nomifordays @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @YourCaringConfidant @mysteriousClover @TabbyCat97

Sorry if I missed anyone.

And to the person who I do dearly miss , I hope you are okay and well. I hope you find this tag one day and you know I love and care about you and you will always be inside of me @cristlecares

Dear world,

You dragged me into a rocky path. The shadows that constantly followed me. Every person I met. Every hurt that walked inside of me. Every time my bullies would tease me and spit at me. Every time my parents said something hurtful yet I couldn't open my mouth because it's better to keep it closed. Every time someone said something and I would scream and cry and shout and tell them to shut up because it hurt so much. Yet I still regret telling people to shut up even today. Every time I pulled and dragged my bruises and lumps. Every time I dragged myself to that place I never wanted to be or to be born in. Will you always tell me who to be? Am I just a huge *** burden who can't even do anything properly. Will my *** self every disappear and wishing I could just disappear. To pull me. Drag me. Just do anything. I can't even breathe without burden inside of me. So *** *** this is what I deserved. Thank you. It was all my fault. I thank all. That it was all my *** fault and my love was all wasted and my kindness didn't matter. And I didn't matter and everyone *** Hates me. And the *** lies I tell that bother. And the *** heart that bleeds inside of me. And the *** words that attacked my brain. Forgive me. Leave me. Stop hurting me. I beg you. I surrender. And it *** hurts so bad.

Bunny

@amiableBunny4016 Ooohhh my, that's sooo deep. I feel for you, Bunny, but continue to be strong. You can overcome anything. And remember, things won't be like this forever. Continue to be the best sister you can be and look after your baby brother. Protect yourself, Bunny. Hugs.

@YourCaringConfidant

@amiableBunny4016

Sweet Lovely Wonderful Kindhearted Bunny <3 I know so much is going on right now, and im so proud of you for fighting through each day. You got this bunny, im here for you :') and im so sorry things so difficult you sweet hoooman

You never fail to make me smile every time we talk, I love our fun chats and you are such an amazing human on 7cups <3 keep being amazzzingg buddy

Tabs

Omg I couldn't hold this in. But today is someone's special day and she is so so special and amazing. So caring in the community!

Happyyy birthday @Karasu11. Hope you don't mind me posting this. Your amazing thank you for all the amazing things you dooo 🐇🍰🍰🍰🍰. Some bunny loves u!. You are so so unique and I love your energy! Stay happy and safe .wohooo. love, bunny

Happy birthday to your buddy! 🍰

Oh and how can I forget . It's not a party without my dancing

Nice . I been know for my break dancing

This poem is for my teenie friends but adults can go ahead and read it *shrugs*

I am sorry teens

I remember the day I started here.

The nervous, trembling 13-year-old.

Pulling.

Pushing.

Trying.

I try everything.

Just to be alive.

Just to breathe.

I want to be able to breathe.

You all noticed me and said hi.

I found you.

My friends.

My family.

My people.

Thank you teenies.

For everything.

You all mean the world to me.

I hope to see you free.

I hope to see you keep going.

To learn to love yourself.

To succeed.

And we will plant our seed.

And keep growing.

And we grow.

Some of you became listeners.

Others went to oldie world.

Some stayed.

Now....

I walk in.

Into a void.

And I keep getting pulled.

I am sorry.

I am sorry my friends.

I could never go a day without being a burden.

And there is a ton.

A ton of teenies out there.

And some things in life just aren't fair.

Now I feel like a ghost.

Like no one can see me.

Some of you forgot my existence.

Some don't say hi to me anymore.

Some apologise.

Some try to keep going.

Some fall apart.

Yet saying hello is difficult now a days.

I get it.

I just don't exist.

When I am gone one day.....

Don't dare say.

Anything.

Forget me.

Its like...

I was thrown from the sky to the ground.

Its not all of you.

Its just me.

Bunny

Hi it's 11pm but I don't care lol.

🧡Bunny needs sleep 🧡

🧡Bunny chooses not to sleep 🧡

🧡Bunny gets sleepy🧡

I am not a number poem- by bunny.

I am not a number.

In fact I'm an individual human.

Yet you see me as a statistic.

'it happens. Millions of kids get abused'

I'm not a number.

I'm not a million.

I know it happens.

But I have a story.

I have fears.

Tears.

Love.

Feelings.

But you saw me as a number.

"Your just one of them"

I'm one of myself.

I'm bunny.

I have stories.

My own story.

My life was filled with suffering.

But I am 1.

I am not a statistic.

I'm sick.

I'm tired.

I'm bunny.

And most importantly I'm sorry

@YourCaringConfidant

Desiree😭😭😭😭 what on Earth 😭😭😭😭 your too sweet 😭😭😭😭 woahteihtioweahthwekgjs how do i thank you? <3 <3 Thats one of the best poems I have ever read, are you a secret poet or something? this is too sweettttt . you call me the sweetestt bunny but your literally the sweetest Desiree I have ever met. how can i tell you :o your posts for PAT are *beautiful*. You write with all your heart. And omg your words are so soothing . I love ya iewtfhsiethwjtfhewuihtfw❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I am coming back to you with another surprise... I cant let this one slip ❤️🌷

Bunny

@amiableBunny4016 You are sooo welcome. I was going to write you an appreciation and voice record me reading it so it could flow, but it was only 2a so that was a no go but I had to get it out. Lol. I am glad you love your poem. <3 You are something special. Smile today because you deserve it. <3

@YourCaringConfidant

teirjtwietwiohtiwhtihewoiqhteiwht you also smile!

Blep. Boop. Beep. Baap. I'm bored

tw/abuse

Dear Mom and Dad,

I know you hated me. You doubted me. You abused me. But I want to tell you that I want to hug you. I love you mom. I love you dad. You can hate me but I love you. I will keep you close to my heart forever. Please know that no matter how you were, no matter how hard you beat me, I love you. You could kill me but i would still love you. I know its hard right now and im proud of you.

@amiableBunny4016 Oohhh my dear Bunny. You never deserve to be mistreated. I'm so sorry to read your story. To feel your pain. Your scars, whether physical or emotional, will heal. You have a voice and I'm so glad you find comfort expressing it through your writings and poems. What a wonderful outlet for you. Bunny, I am so proud of you. You amaze me. Once you grow up, you will be a powerhouse! Use all that hurt to your advantage. You are strong and can overcome anything. 💪 Hugs.

@YourCaringConfidant

Hdjwkiehrkowowjdjhfhisiidhckoaowoeueujdid idk what to say

Forgotten

I have found a definition for myself after so many years:

Forgotten

I am forgotten. ❤️

Is the world a way for me? Or am I the way for the world?

The world has always been the same.

So has society.

So have we.

In this world.

We find our ways.

We find chaos.

We find love.

But at the end of the day...

Life was just a tragedy.

A tragic story.

That feels like a never ending book.

No matter how much you flick the pages.

At the end..

We all go.

Our book is closed.

Will I find my way through this world?

Or is this world a way for me?

I don't know.

I'm...

Bunny.

Dear world (part 1 is in this forum somewhere)

To those who read part 1 I'm sure this will make sense.

Dear world,

Sometimes I wonder. How to cope? How to breathe? How to cry? Because if I did any crying, I was weak. If I took a deep breath, someone would make it harder for me. If I screamed in a middle of a field I would still be unheard. How do I survive? They say those that have been through *** and have still been standing are warriors. But I let my guard down. And the whole world beat me. In this world always keep your guard up. In this world never put your guard down. Because at the end everyone leaves. No one stays. I've gone through *** with my parents. I've gone through *** with my bullies. I've tried everything I could to end my story. To close this book. But it's all just *** too much. I don't think I can endure so much. Sometimes I sit by myself and think I'm such a big sinner, such a terrible human. That I want to seek forgiveness from every person I know. It's hard to know. Who cares in a world that's not your own? Who survives in a world that's not ours? In a society that I can't say is mine. Neither do I want to be part of a society. The answer is no one. No one cares.

Thank you world. For teaching me so much I would have never known. The tragedy of this *** disaster and the *** up world we have to live in.

Bunny

'what if the world doesn't treat us kindly? ' said the child.

'then you treat the world kindly" said the man.

'the world is full of wonders young child, leave your footprints in this world and that's all you can do.'

Bunny

Mom and Dad- tw/abuse

Mom... And Dad.

Became Mom or Dad.

Then it became. Is this my mom? Is this my dad?

You proud of yourself?

A child could be helpless.

But you know what?

Sometimes we think we can conquer the world.

That's what you thought.

You thought that if you abuse me and that young boy you would conquer the world.

But sometimes we get ruined too mom.

Sometimes we get ruined dad.

Words dont just go away in no time.

Because your words are still carved into me.

I remember the ugly fights you both had.

One day the police came to our home..

You didn't have any sympathy at all.

And before I knew it the police left our home because you both lied.

Did you think of me?

A child.

I was 7.

I remember another time...

Dad smashed plates on the ground.

And when I asked dad to stop

Mom slapped me.

What is this?

A childhood?

If I could live my own childhood wouldn't that just be better?

They say...

When you become a mother you don't just become a mother to 1 child. You are a mother of every child.

When we are a child of the world.

We can't live life like this.

The way I survived.

I saved you from getting in trouble.

In hospital I pulled and dragged my scars and made excuses so they don't question you.

But you still.

Still pull me by the hair like a ragged doll.

But don't ask for my forgiveness ever.

Never.

Because I am beyond forgiveness.

I am beyond apologies.

I forgave you a long time ago.

Both of you.

Dad the amount of times you lost your mind on us.

We make mistakes.

So why pull me and drag me for them.

Mom why do you compare me to every other child?

Dad why did you say those words over and over to me?

Mom why would you strangle me for the smallest of things?

And so what?

In your Brain it's like...

So what?

You thought it was your right.

One day..

When you stand at my grave.

Don't cry.

Burn me.

Just like my heart was burning.

Let me go.

Bunny