The field of broken dreams

I am sorry that there was only the intital post and it only contained one thing. I was a bit under the weather when making it. I apolizgize for wasting anyone who read it thinking it is actually a post. I am sorry for my worthlessness.

I am sorry that there was only the intital post and it only contained one thing. I was a bit under the weather when making it. I apolizgize for wasting anyone who read it thinking it is actually a post. I am sorry for my worthlessness.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWRd_-IsDHs

Wildfire - Villain

(Nightcore version)

@aiko123

I would like to convey my deepest sincere appologies for hurting you for no reason on your first post...Excuses or explanations are never going to make things right, neither turn the clock back in time but humbly, believe me, I am dreadfully sorry for writing what I did...I can tell you that has nothing to do with you and that forest is just a place I wish I went to never bother anyone anymore, it was a message to me written on your post, an attempt for me to get banned...

Once again I convey my deepest sincere appologies and rest reassured that I will have to live with the shame and perpetual remorse for what I did, hurting an inocent soul in my own turmoils...

I do not expect you to forgive ne but just undersrand tgat my ugly outburst had absolutely nothing to do with your struggling opening soul and that here you are on good hands like your answering friends...my deepest regrets...

@mytwistedsoul

@NoneTheWiser

Just a random poem

Break

Then mend yourself

Again,

Put on a Fake smile

Like makeup,

Dont let People see

Somethings wrong

Dont let them see

They hurt you,

Dont show weakness

They smell it

And pounce

Break

Then stay broken,

Resist the pull of the knife

Of the pills

The lighter

So that

They cant tell

Breaking

is such a

bitter sweet sorrow

Hi, so small udate on something that happened while I was gone.

Around 4 months ago, I managed to get out of an abusive relationship and believe me when I say, he was almost as bad as my parents.

1 month ago, I got into another relationship with a very close friend of mine. This friend doesn't know anything about what's happening at home or what happened with the last person. He's brought me nothing but joy so far, much to my suprise. I would honestly trust him with my life. I considering opening up to him about some of the things that have happened and are still happening, but I don't want to scare him off. What if it's too early? I want to be able to be open with him. Hmm...You know what, once I see an opportunity, I'll try to start the conversation. Wish me luck!

So, other notebook keeps saying it was removed, so I'll just vibe here lol.

Anyway, I'm gonna stick some goals for next week here (todays date: 2-3-2021):

1. Eat at least one meal everyday

2. get at least 6 hours of sleep every night

3. Write a new chapter in the story I'm working on
4. Catch up on some school assignments

Apologies and broken wishes To you, my friend, the one that I got to hurt 6 months ago, because I overwhelmed you. I feel horrible. I'm sorry I couldn't be a kind person to him. And because it's your birthday, I might never get to apologize to you. I only wish you all the happiness in the world. I can't ruin it for you. Thank you, thank you, for making me a wiser person. To my parents, the ones who made me who I am, I'm sorry I couldn't be the child that you wished me to be. I've been way worse than just a rascally troublemaker. I can't heal you of your diseases, I can't make your jobs easier. I only wish you all the happiness in the world. Thank you, for teaching me how to be a good person and loving me unconditionally. Thank you. To my teachers, other relatives, and friends, you deserve countless apologies too. I know I've hurt you too, and you're also important to me, and you have been just as inspiring for me. Thank you for your every little encouragement and hardship you've thrown at me thank you. Yet, after all of you have been amazing people to me, I've hurt you and made your lives a mess. I didn't take action to manifest your advices. I wish I could repay you. Because forgiveness I don't deserve. At least from myself. I might move on, but not forgive.