The Grove of a Spruce Tree 🌲
Hello! You can call me Spruce. I just discovered this interesting diary entry section of 7 Cups, and this is something I’ve been looking for. I need a place where I can spill out all of my thoughts without criticism, and that’s not something I can really rely on through 1:1 chats (even though I haven’t been here for that long, it’s my upfront impression).
I would prefer to keep this as a space for myself, but if anyone would like to send supportive comments for my post, just dive right in! I don’t mind at all 😊
So for anyone who may be reading this, there may be some rough topics such as family stress, severe self-hate, and some pretty graphic flashbacks (but not too graphic). I will try my best not to make this an inappropriate space, but I just wanted to give a heads up just it case it starts getting to that point.
Donuts are in full supply at all times, so feel free to grab a snack when you travel by 😊 And feel free to greet me when you’re here - I absolutely love meeting new people, and I want to build my support group here on 7 Cups ❤️
Spruumioneeee, how have you been? ^^
@MelodyoftheOcean
aquariussssssssss ❤️ im so sorry for replying really late :') im on summer break now (gotta love college when the spring semester ends in mid may instead of the end of june), and now im more into the relaxing groove sort to speak xD
things have really been a rollercoaster since november, since i was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, but ive been pushing through and i got all a's this semester woooo! being a computer engineering major can be a pain at times, but im really enjoying my classes and the college experience as a whole. and im in the executive board of two major-oriented clubs which is really exciting!!
how about yoouuuuu? its been agesssss T~T
@selflessSpruce1515
That sounds pretty awesome, other than the diabetes of course. I hope things are still as good as they were a month ago! 💕
I'm okay, taking some time to be with my family and friends ^^
Spruceeeee come visit me 😭😭😭😭
@JemmyX0X0
i wish i didnt see this just nowwwww T-T we gotta arrange time to be in mcr at the same time because i wanna catch upppppp *hug hug for you* ❤️
while we're here, how have you been moi dear friendsieeee?
@selflessSpruce1515 I have been awfuuuul and my mental health has taaaaaaaaanked how are youuuuu?
@JemmyX0X0
awww noooo :') if you want to talk about whats going on, im here for ya ❤️ i know its been around a month since i was last on here but ill try to be here as much as i can
im doing alright! pretty busy with internship stuff but im trying to take care of myself as best i can :)
@selflessSpruce1515 Hope you don't mind but I was so surprised to see you pop up in my notifications. It feels like forever since I talked with you 💙 How are you? How's college and all that other adulty stuff lol
@mytwistedsoul
soulllllllllllll 🥺❤️ omg omg omg i missed you sooooooo much!! things have kinda been a rollercoaster for a while now, but luckily its summer break now so im giving myself time to recharge and heal some more :) but i did really really well this semester with all A's and i landed several summer programs to get my foot through the door in my career path in the computer engineering realm, so im really looking forward to them starting next week! 😊
how about you? how have you been moi dearest friendsieeee? *hugs for you* 🤗
@selflessSpruce1515 Hey congratulations on all the A's! That's some hard work put in! It's really awesome that you got into some summer programs to help you towards your career! I hope they go well and you learn lots of cool and interesting things! Probably feels nice to be able to relax a little I bet 😊
@mytwistedsoul
thank you so muchhhh!! i will definitely send updates on how they go :) and yesss, it has been a rough spring semester so im glad i can kick back and relax a little bit ❤️
and of course! i want you to know that im here if you feel comfy talking about anything thats going on (especially since im finally able to be on here more to support moi friendsiesss ✨) ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515 I'm glad you can kick back and relax too. You worked hard this first semester. Was it as hard as you thought it might be or about what you expected? No pressure to answer that of course
@mytwistedsoul
the fall semester actually was not as bad as i expected, but i would say the spring semester was the most stressful with the type 1 diabetes diagnosis and such :') but i made it through and i did well, so im actually kinda proud of myself for once <3
and dont worry about it! there is no pressure to share, but just know that now that im back (or trying to be back haha), im here to support you :) just know that you're not alone and you always got a listening ear here ❤️ *hugs* 🤗
no worries about the late reply! i can honestly relate to that, and you can take as much time as you need to reply to these posts <3
@selflessSpruce1515 You should be proud of yourself! Oh wow type 1 diabetes? That must have been hard to take. I'm sorry you got hit with that Spruce. Is it manageable now? But yeah between college and have to adjust to that and then with the diabetes - you made it through and did well! Woohoo!
@mytwistedsoul
thank youuuuu ❤️ and yes, it came so suddenly and it was hard to deal with at first but now it is significantly more manageable :)
and my summer has been pretty good! fairly busy tho because i did one internship back in june and im currently during an internship in data analytics which is pretty cool :) im also doing some AI research is the most exciting for me since its smth that im really interested in pursuing as a career
and yesssss, its way too hot here! i really wish i can go for a walk again during the afternoon but i gotta go really early in the morning to fit one in :')
spruce :0 been so long
@mysteriousClover
cloverrrrrr ❤️ its so good to see youuuuu! and yessss, its been agessss! how have you been moi dearest friendsieeeee? 🤗
@selflessSpruce1515
pretty good! i just came back from 3 weeks at camp where i did a backpacking trip. we did all 42 miles of the pictured rocks segment of the north country trail in 8 days which was pretty cool. how've you been?
Hey everyoneeee! Hope you all are doing okay, and if not, just know that I'm here for you 💖 Just wanted to pop in and check in on the wonderful hooman beans on cups ❤️ I know I have not been on as frequently, but I am trying my best because y'all are amazing and have support me through so much over the past few years 🤗
So I honestly have a lot going on: I made it through my first year of college with a 3.9 GPA, which is a huge accomplishment for me given that I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes in November, and since then, life has been a rollercoaster. Meanwhile, in June, I did an engineering internship at my college and it was such a rewarding experience. It was hands-on and a great opportunity to network with the faculty and my peers. (I'm still waiting for my paycheck though xD) And now, I'm doing an internship at a medical institution as a data analyst and working on an AI project with a professor at my college, which honestly hasn't been as stressful as I anticipated. But I'm making sure to take good care of myself <3
In my personal life, things have been pretty chaotic since I was diagnosed with diabetes; I'm taking rapid insulin injections before meals and long-acting insulin before bed, and honestly, they really help keep my glucose levels fairly consistent now which is really great to see. I was also diagnosed with ADHD, major depressive disorder, and generalized anxiety after completing a psych evaluation to renew my testing accommodations. All of these new diagnoses coming at once really hit me hard, but I am bouncing back and doing my absolute best to practice self-care. Some of the activities I have been doing include sketching, writing poetry, playing the piano, and exercising, such as as cardio, aerobic, and yoga flows. Also, due to diabetes, I had to change my entire diet which impacted my energy levels and overall mood, so I have been actively been trying to find diabetic-friendly foods (and I have been pretty successful- I gotta say that Quest products and Kind zero sugar bars are the absolute best, and I always have them with me along with my lil diabetes tool kit).
On another note, back in September, I broke up with my boyfriend after dating him for 7 months. I was really depressed and not in a good place, but around a month later (yes, I know it seems like a short amount of time but honestly it was a streak of fate), I found someone on a dating app who truly cares about me and I have been dating him for almost 11 months now, and I couldn't have been any happier. I wish I was able to see him in-person more often since he lives in a different city in the same state as me, but we make the most of our time together. Literally just an hour ago, we were watching a few episodes of the "Animation vs. Minecraft" series created by Alan Becker on Youtube (highly recommend btw), and we were chatting at the same time which was so cozy and wonderful. He is so supportive in every way and I feel so fortunate to have met such a beautiful soul.
On that note, it was my birthday last week so my family and I went out to dinner, which was super nice. I am still trying to find the right moment to ask my parents when I would be able to visit my boyfriend because he got me a s*** ton of presents (and I mean a *ton*) that he wants to give me (including a new laptop and these cute kitty-ear headphones 🥺), but most importantly, I wanna see him and give him a hugeeeeee hug because he has been there for me through some really rough spots and I appreciate him so much. 💖
But now that's enough for my rant. Feel free to share how y'all have been doing because I miss all of you sooooooo much (especially my fellow teenies [and yes, I still consider myself to be a teenie 😌 always and forever]) 🤗❤️
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@selflessSpruce1515
hey there sprucie 🥺💖💖🫂 don’t worry, I’ve been kinda the same with cups. Also Happy belated birthdayyyyy!!! And I get things can be rather up and down. But I’m glad you’ve found someone who’s really nice 🥺💖💖💖
@emotionalTalker2260
emosaurussssssss, i missed you so much omggggg 🥺💖 how have you beeeeeeeen?
@selflessSpruce1515
Spumioneeeeee
Lol I typed all this out before, but then I closed the tab, and now it's all gooone, I'll try again!
(Funny thing, in the first post I said I wanted to take the time to go through all of it, which is why it is late. Good thing I did, otherwise I wouldn't have the patience to do all this again! xD )
I am so, so happy for you that you got that internship and you keep doing things you want to do. That is such a big step!
That mental health does sound chaotic, and psych evals can absolutely be a pain, but I am glad that you got that insulin, and that it actually is working! Weeeeeee ^^
Breaking up is hard, and I am sorry you had to go through that. Taking a month is completely valid, having some time for yourself can be good too, and help you cope with what happened.
And it makes me sooo happy that you found someone who is there for you now. You deserve that.
Happy very late birthdaaay, you are getting old now too hehe. Spending it with people who are close to you sounds like a wonderful day. 🥳
It's good to see you around, but whenever I do not see you, I do hope it is because your life is going great and you don't need the support right now. Please take care of yourself as best as you can, and have some cookies! (These are magical and will not affect the diabetes in any way ^^)
