The Grove of a Spruce Tree 🌲

I'm disappointed that I haven't been able to commit to writing daily entries again– I have just been so busy lately even while my motivation level has been at its absolute low. But I'm trying my best, and that's what counts ❤️

What I wanted to do is post one song that I've been listening to on-repeat for a few days now. It reminds me of every romantic endeavor I've made and the uncomfortable feelings behind them, but by looking for a song like this, it shows that I want to be able to cope with my emotions; listening to these songs make that possible for me 🤗

So without further ado, here's the song:

tw: insomnia descriptions, images of intimacy, brief mention of a drug (specifically a common painkiller)

Please skip this; whitened this because can be potentially triggering, and is a bit personal

Spruca's scared :') Starting to have frightening nightmares after a year of empty dreams. Would prefer having no dreams at all than nightmares that make her wake up crying. Spruca is so tired of the anxiety, and it's just getting worse as school creeps around the corner. Parents are arguing more now, and they're really mad at Spruca for going behind their backs.. Spruca just wants to have a social life and be connected with support system, but parents don't understand. They'll never understand. Spruca wants to get a phone, and hopes to get one before school starts. But now, not so sure– will Spruca get addicted to that? Spruca get easily addicted to things, really electronics– addictive tendencies scare her the most. Maybe having phone be good for her because will learn how to set boundaries– but on other hand, can cause issues mentally. Not only issue in her mind though– Spruca keeps regressing, and afraid getting so comfy being smol that doesn't want to grow up. Friends notice too, and not really like :') Get concerned, and Spruca not want to worry friendsies. What can Spruca do though...not really anything. But nightmares get so bad now– yesterday, had one about being suck in web with silver spider. Afraid spider was gonna bite Spruca :') Spruca not want nightmares again– but too much anxiety does that...trying to cope as best as she can. Was actually productive up to this point, so that good. But subconscious anxiety affecting her greatly. Physically being affected too– feels like losing strength each day. Today better though, because felt strong in arms again for first time in while. But still worried :') However, Spruca be okie– not first time this happened, and Spruca will overcome again <3 Spruca not so worried anymore because of that. Just need to take things one step at a time, and Spruca will be able to get through this all :)

It's reminder time for all my grove visitors 🤗 ❤️ (And also a picture of kitties and a pup because why not 😌)

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@selflessSpruce1515 Just dropping off a hey and a hug :) ❤️ Hope all is well in the world of Spruce

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Spucieeeeeee??????????

@selflessSpruce1515

You popped into my thoughts today

Hope things are going ok in the world of Spruce ❤️

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