Stormy corner
Just need a space to vent everything on my mind.
Sometimes i do feel like all hope is gone and nothing is gonna change, ither times im trying best i can. Only a human, with my flaws, the good sides and the bad sides.
Lately a lot overwhelmed with life and pressure from everyone. I just feel like escaping for a little while.
Hope i can find some peace someday.
Ty. ๐
๏ปฟ@ArtemisStormWolf ๏ปฟ
I get it ArtemisStormWolf. It can be hard to read the emotional weather that's roiling across your mind and face. It's like being one of the planets closest to the sun, always hot, dust swirling, lightening striking, and clouds obscuring everything. Who would or even want see through all that? ๏ปฟBeing with all that has to be hard to deal with. I just find a quiet place, pull a few cleansing breaths, let them go, and focus on what I really need to accomplish. Quiet introspection helps a lot.
A bit of me again :/
Just having exams start today. Gotten back home feeling quiet bad, โน๏ธ i feel like im unlucky. Kinda a lot of efort but no results.
Starting to consider other study options. Feeling like myb im not up for this, โน๏ธ. Hopefully everything be better soon.
@ArtemisStormWolf ๐ค
So doing another post.
I feel like im saying that im okay a lot lately. I didn't pass exams, im retaking my year and idk how to feel about it. I am stressed with it.
Wish i could say things get easier, but they aren't really. I just hope that all the terapy and medication pay off someday. Although i do need my medications changed.
I realise i have autophobia, which kinda explains a lot of anxiety i experience as well. Depression sucks, negative thoughts too, and well physical helth kinda suspicious too. I guess I'll need to get a lot of things checked.
Im okay, i just don't feel so.
Hope to see light in this dark one day too.
Ty. *leaves cookies*
Hey again
๐ฅ I got my meds dosage increased, and got told i have mid hard depression... โน๏ธNo need to say that doc diagnosed me with depression while i was having anxiety attaack...
I also realised i have autophobia (idk if i mentioned it before). And i didn't even get a chance to tell that. I complained that meds aren't fitting me, they make me feel numb, highly sedated and i can't function on them. And doc was like let's increase dosage ๐
Im trapped idk what to do. But i don't trust that person like at all...
@ArtemisStormWolf Aw, sorry to hear that you had an anxiety attack, I can only imagine how hard it can be. Having high doses can affect us mentally and physically i understand, and maybe it doesn't hurt to have a second opinion from another expert :).
take care and stay strong *hugs*
strings
Well happy new year to all!
As for so far its been sad, i wanna cry so badly but i can't. Medication isn't helping. Pain is sooo bad, i don't know how im even breathing rn. And well just another year...
Fireworks definitely gave me new trauma, like every year. My poor cat hid under the blanket and didn't move until morning when it finally stopped. Idk why people love foreworks so much... ๐ Anyways enough of me runting.
Tc
@ArtemisStormWolf Happy new year storm...I understand that life can keep us in difficult situations and sorry to hear that you aren't okay :/.
@BlueRivercares ping me if you need someone to talk to :)
Today is 3rd of February, I'm choosing to make this a colourful post.
My new years resolutions are:
1. To pass my exams ( 2/10 done)
2. To read at least 10 books (already read two books - well it was audio+reading lol, and I'm also having one book somewhere around middle)
3. To maintain practising yoga regularly (so far im doing it, let's see if i keep it app for whole year)
Although 3 goals may not seem much, I feel those are what I need for a fresh start and for boosting my productivity.
As for things in my life, my medication dosage is now on max xD doctors order lmao. I should go to dentists, get my eyes checked and what not. But again that's just a to-do list. Im really better now, and I'm back to being a bit of old me. Also I'm more interacting with my off-cups friends, exchanging emails and hanging out, walking and so on.
And I'm in piece with my feelings i think i finally stoped fighting against them. So wish me luck.
Have a good day! *leaves jar of sweets*
@ArtemisStormWolf
Pretty much just a plain update:
I managed to read 3 books by now, if i continue as i started i should fullfil my goal :) makes me feel proud lol.
Exams aren't going as planed /: but i do hope i at least manage to clear what's left from my 1st year. I hope badly for it.
I did take a week of off yoga, well just that time of the month lmao. And I'm very into animes lately, and well managing to get in touch with my real emotions as well.
It surprising how much of what if's cab exist and how many regrets a person can have before even reaching their adult time, or even turning 18teen.and well idk i hope we all manage.
@ArtemisStormWolf yay awesome!!! kuddoss for reading 3 books and all the best for exams :)
@BlueRivercares
Ty angelic twinie! (:
@ArtemisStormWolf your welcome :)
Well, my reading plan is going quite good ๐ i read 5 so far, so i may change my goal to more books eventually. My uni studying isn't at the best but april is comming with new exam terms! So i hope for better luck this time around.
Unfortunately for me april is also anniversary of a tragic memory and im scared, im scared of myself.
And i changed my name to "ash" ๐ so officially i have a "dead name" out of my real name xD
Hey.
Yet again me.
Tw start
Sh
Had a relapse, instead of healing from my bad habits I'm finding new ways to make ones. And on top of that i just messed up the best thing i had in a while.
Ending
Im missing my old friends, that i stopped hanging with so long ago. I'm thinking about reconnecting, but I'd just bring pain and sorrow into their lives, so I'm just staying away, and lying about how I'm doing really - especially about my academic achievements.
And i also stopped doing yoga, well, my foot is hurting and my skin seems to have some issue of its own. Probably half of it is stress, and other half is genetics...
Im ending it here. Tace care folks.
๐ค ๐ค ๐ *leaves biscuits bowl*
@ArtemisStormWolf
Stormyyyyyy, I don't know why I am only just seeing this now, but I'm very happy I stumbled across it. I've missed you, and I really hope you're alright. I hope to hear from youuu
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@ArtemisStormWolf I miss you too. stay strong, I know you can overcome it. my pms are always open to spam. hope it gets okay soon :')
@MelodyoftheOcean
@BlueRivercares
Hey, thank you both for being here for me! Sending hugs and good wishes to you all, sorry for late post ๐
But i do have a good news! I passed one of my exams, with best possible score! I can't believe i did it, so i guess it's time to throw a party! ๐๐ฅ๐ง๐ง๐ฟ๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ช๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ง๐ง๐ง๐ง๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐๐๐๐จ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐ซ๐๐๐๐
@ArtemisStormWolf
Congratssssss, that's so amazing!
And yes, a party we shall have ๐
I'm really happy to hear from you. Missed yaa โค๏ธ
@ArtemisStormWolf yayyy congrats stotmieee..*hugs tightest*. Yus yus it's party time!!!
@BlueRivercares stormieeeee*
Hello!
I've been my usual busy, midterms ๐ญ. Well, I did do some things well, but not good enough.
And it's been insanely tiring going on lectures, and sleeping is hard.
And I've seen one of my colleagues, ๐ It's funny how we need exams to come accross one another. It's just a one more reason for attending. XD
Anyhow, how are my cups friends? ๐ฎ Im hopping to be active around (at some point) again.