Stormy corner

@ArtemisStormWolf 

I get it ArtemisStormWolf. It can be hard to read the emotional weather that's roiling across your mind and face. It's like being one of the planets closest to the sun, always hot, dust swirling, lightening striking, and clouds obscuring everything. Who would or even want see through all that? Being with all that has to be hard to deal with. I just find a quiet place, pull a few cleansing breaths, let them go, and focus on what I really need to accomplish. Quiet introspection helps a lot.

A bit of me again :/

Just having exams start today. Gotten back home feeling quiet bad, ☹️ i feel like im unlucky. Kinda a lot of efort but no results.

Starting to consider other study options. Feeling like myb im not up for this, ☹️. Hopefully everything be better soon.

_{So doing another post.}

I feel like im saying that im okay a lot lately. I didn't pass exams, im retaking my year and idk how to feel about it. I am stressed with it.

Wish i could say things get easier, but they aren't really. I just hope that all the terapy and medication pay off someday. Although i do need my medications changed.

I realise i have autophobia, which kinda explains a lot of anxiety i experience as well. Depression sucks, negative thoughts too, and well physical helth kinda suspicious too. I guess I'll need to get a lot of things checked.

Im okay, i just don't feel so.

Hope to see light in this dark one day too.

Ty. *leaves cookies*

Hey again

😥 I got my meds dosage increased, and got told i have mid hard depression... ☹️No need to say that doc diagnosed me with depression while i was having anxiety attaack...

I also realised i have autophobia (idk if i mentioned it before). And i didn't even get a chance to tell that. I complained that meds aren't fitting me, they make me feel numb, highly sedated and i can't function on them. And doc was like let's increase dosage 🙄

Im trapped idk what to do. But i don't trust that person like at all...

Well happy new year to all!

As for so far its been sad, i wanna cry so badly but i can't. Medication isn't helping. Pain is sooo bad, i don't know how im even breathing rn. And well just another year...

Fireworks definitely gave me new trauma, like every year. My poor cat hid under the blanket and didn't move until morning when it finally stopped. Idk why people love foreworks so much... 😐 Anyways enough of me runting.

Tc

Today is 3rd of February, I'm choosing to make this a colourful post.

My new years resolutions are:

1. To pass my exams ( 2/10 done)
2. To read at least 10 books (already read two books - well it was audio+reading lol, and I'm also having one book somewhere around middle)
3. To maintain practising yoga regularly (so far im doing it, let's see if i keep it app for whole year)

Although 3 goals may not seem much, I feel those are what I need for a fresh start and for boosting my productivity.

As for things in my life, my medication dosage is now on max xD doctors order lmao. I should go to dentists, get my eyes checked and what not. But again that's just a to-do list. Im really better now, and I'm back to being a bit of old me. Also I'm more interacting with my off-cups friends, exchanging emails and hanging out, walking and so on.

And I'm in piece with my feelings i think i finally stoped fighting against them. So wish me luck.

Have a good day! *leaves jar of sweets*

Well, my reading plan is going quite good 😉 i read 5 so far, so i may change my goal to more books eventually. My uni studying isn't at the best but april is comming with new exam terms! So i hope for better luck this time around.

Unfortunately for me april is also anniversary of a tragic memory and im scared, im scared of myself.

And i changed my name to "ash" 😁 so officially i have a "dead name" out of my real name xD

Hey.

Yet again me.

Tw start

Sh

Had a relapse, instead of healing from my bad habits I'm finding new ways to make ones. And on top of that i just messed up the best thing i had in a while.

Ending

Im missing my old friends, that i stopped hanging with so long ago. I'm thinking about reconnecting, but I'd just bring pain and sorrow into their lives, so I'm just staying away, and lying about how I'm doing really - especially about my academic achievements.

And i also stopped doing yoga, well, my foot is hurting and my skin seems to have some issue of its own. Probably half of it is stress, and other half is genetics...

Im ending it here. Tace care folks.

🖤 🤍 💚 *leaves biscuits bowl*

@MelodyoftheOcean

@BlueRivercares

Hey, thank you both for being here for me! Sending hugs and good wishes to you all, sorry for late post 😅

But i do have a good news! I passed one of my exams, with best possible score! I can't believe i did it, so i guess it's time to throw a party! 🙀🥞🧇🧀🍿🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍦🍦🍦🧁🧁🧁🧁🍰🍰🍰🎂🎂🎂🍨🍨🍫🍫🍫🍫🍫🍕🍕🍟🍟

Hello!

I've been my usual busy, midterms 😭. Well, I did do some things well, but not good enough.

And it's been insanely tiring going on lectures, and sleeping is hard.

And I've seen one of my colleagues, 😂 It's funny how we need exams to come accross one another. It's just a one more reason for attending. XD

Anyhow, how are my cups friends? 😮 Im hopping to be active around (at some point) again.