Scattered Thoughts
Thought it might be a good idea to have my own thread where I can think things out and rant without feeling guilty about invading other peoples spaces.
Met a few people yesterday on 7cups. Mostly really nice to talk to and had good conversations.
It was after a long while that I didn't cry or feel sad. I was amazed. When you don't find anyone at all to empathize these days, even yourself, I had such nice conversations. So really glad!
It could be that because I have finally accepted things and no more in denial, I am not getting hurt again and again. May be I have actually started looking foward in life, rather than just in my head. And now may be I am finally liking the God's plan which I was totally loathing just a few days back.
I feel like an asshole, I can’t dig up enough interest to watch the space thing that’s happening tonight live, yet I also feel a sense of panic from not watching it and I know depression takes away your motivation but I still feel shitty for not keeping up with this event especially since I’m taking astronomy as a class right now, and it’s a pretty historical event with a good fundraising cause and yet I can’t put my focus on it and I feel bad about it
@NoneTheWiser @mytwistedsoul
I already know I’ll never be alright. I’m left handed.
All right 🤪🤪
@ThePizza LOL! South paw 😜
In my English class we have four units, and for each unit we were given a list of three or four books to choose from to read for that unit. (Except for Unit Three, which is podcasts interestingly enough.)
I selected my book for this first unit out of the options given and I’m almost done with it. It’s very interesting and overall I like it but it’s also— very heavy at times? Parts of it are hard for me to get through. There’s been more and more of those as the book goes on, and I’ve been struggling to get through it. It also contributes some to my intrusive thoughts which really sucks. I feel very tense right now from reading it.
@ThePizza Hey you :)
That sounds really hard. Especially if it's triggering those intrusive thoughts and making you tense. I would imagine you probably only have so long to read it too. Is there something you can do to that will help with the thoughts and help with the tension? Maybe a moment of self care? Maybe watch some videos or listen to some music? You could maybe try PMR - progressive muscle relaxation - I've started doing it recently and it can really help sometimes. But then so does video games too lol. Maybe you could limit how long you read it and then take a break for alittle? Like read for half an hour and then get up and walk around or stretch? Or if you can pop outside for alittle while - get some fresh air and listen to the crickets?
I think the depression is coming in stronger waves again
I have my first in person Latin test tomorrow and I am woefully unprepared
I am always my own undoing after all
@mytwistedsoul
J— I saw the giraffe you made and I wanted to say that I’m so happy for you that you were able to start a project in the shop again :’)))
@ThePizza Thank you M :) it felt really nice to be able to start working on things again
How did you do with your Latin exam? Wow - Latin - I can't even begin to imagine. I'd look like a monkey doing a math problem lol
@mytwistedsoul
And YOU are awesome :’)
For a while we’ve been working on getting me a 504 so I can get accommodations, mainly extra time on tests, so that will definitely be helpful in the future, but I felt a lot more confident about my answers than I expected to be which is good. Still need to work on spending more time studying though 🤪
Official name of 🦆 : Kazoo
For the life of me I cannot get this ridiculous video out of my head 😂😂
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zo4OzT7wbb0 *volume is pretty loud*
Hit a milestone today. Not a good one, but I feel pretty confident that I did well handling it. Friends helped
@ThePizza You're awesome! I'm glad your friends helped 🙂
@ThePizza Just wanted to say that I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed M :(
