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ThePizza August 11th, 2019

Thought it might be a good idea to have my own thread where I can think things out and rant without feeling guilty about invading other peoples spaces.

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gracefulPurple9181 September 14th, 2021
Just wanted to write my scattered thoughts!

Met a few people yesterday on 7cups. Mostly really nice to talk to and had good conversations.
It was after a long while that I didn't cry or feel sad. I was amazed. When you don't find anyone at all to empathize these days, even yourself, I had such nice conversations. So really glad!

It could be that because I have finally accepted things and no more in denial, I am not getting hurt again and again. May be I have actually started looking foward in life, rather than just in my head. And now may be I am finally liking the God's plan which I was totally loathing just a few days back.heart
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ThePizza OP September 16th, 2021

@gracefulPurple9181

Sounds like things in your life are starting to improve, that’s great :’)

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ThePizza OP September 16th, 2021

I feel like an asshole, I can’t dig up enough interest to watch the space thing that’s happening tonight live, yet I also feel a sense of panic from not watching it and I know depression takes away your motivation but I still feel shitty for not keeping up with this event especially since I’m taking astronomy as a class right now, and it’s a pretty historical event with a good fundraising cause and yet I can’t put my focus on it and I feel bad about it

ThePizza OP September 16th, 2021

@NoneTheWiser @mytwistedsoul

I already know I’ll never be alright. I’m left handed.

All right 🤪🤪

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mytwistedsoul September 16th, 2021

@ThePizza LOL! South paw 😜

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ThePizza OP September 21st, 2021

In my English class we have four units, and for each unit we were given a list of three or four books to choose from to read for that unit. (Except for Unit Three, which is podcasts interestingly enough.)

I selected my book for this first unit out of the options given and I’m almost done with it. It’s very interesting and overall I like it but it’s also— very heavy at times? Parts of it are hard for me to get through. There’s been more and more of those as the book goes on, and I’ve been struggling to get through it. It also contributes some to my intrusive thoughts which really sucks. I feel very tense right now from reading it.

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mytwistedsoul September 21st, 2021

@ThePizza Hey you :)

That sounds really hard. Especially if it's triggering those intrusive thoughts and making you tense. I would imagine you probably only have so long to read it too. Is there something you can do to that will help with the thoughts and help with the tension? Maybe a moment of self care? Maybe watch some videos or listen to some music? You could maybe try PMR - progressive muscle relaxation - I've started doing it recently and it can really help sometimes. But then so does video games too lol. Maybe you could limit how long you read it and then take a break for alittle? Like read for half an hour and then get up and walk around or stretch? Or if you can pop outside for alittle while - get some fresh air and listen to the crickets?

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ThePizza OP September 22nd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

thank you so much for the suggestions :’) I finished it today but I still have assignments and such that go along with it so I’m sure they’ll come in handy

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ThePizza OP September 22nd, 2021

I think the depression is coming in stronger waves again

I have my first in person Latin test tomorrow and I am woefully unprepared

I am always my own undoing after all

ThePizza OP September 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

J— I saw the giraffe you made and I wanted to say that I’m so happy for you that you were able to start a project in the shop again :’)))

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mytwistedsoul September 24th, 2021

@ThePizza Thank you M :) it felt really nice to be able to start working on things again

How did you do with your Latin exam? Wow - Latin - I can't even begin to imagine. I'd look like a monkey doing a math problem lol

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ThePizza OP September 25th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

And YOU are awesome :’)


For a while we’ve been working on getting me a 504 so I can get accommodations, mainly extra time on tests, so that will definitely be helpful in the future, but I felt a lot more confident about my answers than I expected to be which is good. Still need to work on spending more time studying though 🤪


Official name of 🦆 : Kazoo

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ThePizza OP September 24th, 2021

For the life of me I cannot get this ridiculous video out of my head 😂😂

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zo4OzT7wbb0 *volume is pretty loud*

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mytwistedsoul September 24th, 2021

@ThePizza OMG! 🤣 that's not right LOL and now the song is stuck

*bye bye to the sky* you gotta love youtube!

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ThePizza OP September 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

there are many hidden gems on YouTube 😂

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ThePizza OP September 24th, 2021

Hit a milestone today. Not a good one, but I feel pretty confident that I did well handling it. Friends helped

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mytwistedsoul September 24th, 2021

@ThePizza You're awesome! I'm glad your friends helped 🙂

barncat September 26th, 2021

@ThePizza- getting through a milestone is liberating- having friends by your side is fantastic.

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ThePizza OP September 27th, 2021

@barncat

Thank you :’)

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ThePizza OP September 25th, 2021

@NoneTheWiser

*nudge* :p 💙💚 🐈‍⬛ 🐢 🥷

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mytwistedsoul September 27th, 2021

@ThePizza Just wanted to say that I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed M :(