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ThePizza August 11th, 2019

Thought it might be a good idea to have my own thread where I can think things out and rant without feeling guilty about invading other peoples spaces.

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ThePizza OP April 21st, 2020

@mytwistedsoul

We got seeds! My dad got them in case things get bad again in the fall. We dont have a garden or anything so I dont know how thatll go, but we have a fenced in backyard thats decent sized, so I guess well put them out there. My mom has talked about a garden her dad made when she was younger. Huge, by the sound of it, and they grew so many different things. He definitely knew what he was doing.

Anyway I thought it was funny because I remember you mentioned you got some plants, and you noticed everyone else was just going for the actual food

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mytwistedsoul April 22nd, 2020

@ThePizza Hey this is great! It's kind of cool to see that they're thinking ahead. Some of the stuff could probably be planted in pots or planters too - depending on what it is. Some of the garden here is in just waiting foe aomw warmer temps and sunshine. Sugar peas amd green beans. Potatoes have eyes and are ready to go in the ground. Sounds kind of like a horror movie. We just need some good weather. Let me get my farm on lol. Seriously this is cool - good thinking. Now the next question - do you like vegetables? Lol

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ThePizza OP April 25th, 2020

@mytwistedsoul

pretty much yeah lol

im excited to try and grow them

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ThePizza OP April 24th, 2020

Monster by Starset

Carnivore by Starset

Demons by Starset

Afraid by The Neighborhood

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mytwistedsoul April 24th, 2020

@ThePizza Good tunes. I've never heard of the last one. I like it - thank you for sharing them :)

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ThePizza OP April 25th, 2020

@mytwistedsoul

Youre welcome I

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ThePizza OP April 25th, 2020

No its not nice Im screaming inside

never pick the right time

what is this?

Why am I like this around everyone?

why is it always in front of you? Cant stand it

I guess Ill sleep when Im dead (and sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head) not that something else well I learned it, notice my hands begin to twitch aha

…unprovoked assaulting of my conscious wits

sickening static surrounds my mind

im losing time

how did I get like this and how do I go back? You shouldnt talk to me Im not worth this

(I am not as fine as I seem

Pardon

me for yelling/

dont you test me though just because I play the piano

doesnt mean

i

am not willing to take you down

Im sorry)

IM SORRY

ThePizza OP April 28th, 2020

Got older recently

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mytwistedsoul April 28th, 2020

@ThePizza Hey M - Happy belated growing older recently day lol

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ThePizza OP April 28th, 2020

@mytwistedsoul

lol Thank you J! :)

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ThePizza OP April 29th, 2020

ThePizza OP April 30th, 2020

How wonderful to find a place where I feel comfortable ignoring the instinct to lie about how I feel

ThePizza OP April 30th, 2020

@admaiorasemper

Hey hope you

ThePizza OP May 1st, 2020

You ever just start browsing random stuff on 7cups because you want to talk about something but you

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discreetMoon4263 May 1st, 2020

Hey everyone

I am new here

Just wanted to share something that happened to me recently.

PS: it's about a girl I thought I would spend my whole life with

To completely understand what happened few days back you gotta know a bit of a history, so, let me start with no further due (I may sound happy but deep down, I am depressed)

So, it was when I started using Facebook (3 years ago), I joined a group and asked a admin to add me as a moderator in that fb group and he did + he added me to a messenger group. That is where I found her. She was kinda shy to talk in the messenger group. So, I inboxed her and told her not to be shy, our journey began there. So, at start she didn't seem interested in chatting but time passed and she enjoyed talking to me, we talked for like 1 and half year, then I felt like I got feelings for her, so, I told her that and she didn't reply, she just ignored me for 3 days and messaged me like nothing happened.

Another year passed, we are now best friends, she isn't in that group anymore but we used to talk everyday and few days back, she told me that a guy tried to kiss her (I got real angry and jealous) and she asked me whether to date him or not. I said idk it's your choice, if you like him go for it, if not then don't. She kept asking me, so I told her no in anger, and she said that I am smart and she doesn't even reply to most of that guys messages and she gave me her Facebook email and password too. She told me that she'll change the password in few days.

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discreetMoon4263 May 1st, 2020

She looks very happy to chat with and she always asks me too move to her place (she is from another country) and she'll cook for me and we can watch movies together, get drunk together and a lot of stuff, but Yesterday while I was sleeping, she said, we need to talk. And next day I asked her, and she said she needed a break from social media for like a week andor two I said okay. She told me to try it too and we both agreed to quit social media for 2 weeks and before we left it she sent a audio message, we uninstalled socila media at 12 in the morning, and I wanted to download that audio message she sent so I logged back in last night and it showed she was active 3 hours ago, I got some real bad trust issues and idk if she wants to get rid of me. I feel lonely, I feel like hitting something real hard all the time, I cry alone, I got no self respect, I hate the way I look, I hate everything about me. She used to give me hope but after what happened yesterday, I got no one.

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discreetMoon4263 May 1st, 2020

That's all I wanted to say

Thanks for listening 🙂

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discreetMoon4263 May 1st, 2020

I got a feeling that she is dating that guy without me knowing and want to get rid of me, so, she can keep dating him

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ThePizza OP May 9th, 2020

Not sure of anything anymore

Had a moment looking in the mirror where I forgot about being a person, just looking at myself woah thats me? Thats who I am? I am, I exist? And this is my life, crazy

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