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ThePizza August 11th, 2019

Thought it might be a good idea to have my own thread where I can think things out and rant without feeling guilty about invading other peoples spaces.

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ThePizza OP November 20th, 2019

@NoneTheWiser @mytwistedsoul

I feel stuck here but pretend Im sitting with you both— cool

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mytwistedsoul November 20th, 2019

@ThePizza Hey M - This is perfect! We should play go fish or something lol!

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ThePizza OP November 21st, 2019

@mytwistedsoul

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ThePizza OP November 21st, 2019

@NoneTheWiser @mytwistedsoul

Thank you. The support helped/helps a lot-- I've been feeling bad about how little I've responded to things on your threads. I know I'm not obligated but I still want to be doing it

Sigh same apologies for the same issues-- I'm sorry

Why can't I just listen to what you tell me is okay and quit apologizing for every little thing

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mytwistedsoul November 21st, 2019

@ThePizza Hey M - try not to feel bad - You have alot going on in your life - there are no expectations. I do inderstand the feeling of - well you want to reply - you think you should reply but you end up not. It doesn't mean you care any less - just means - Idk - you just aren't in a good enough place to do so. And it's ok - ya know? You take care of you.

Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts

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understandingYard9170 November 21st, 2019

Why is life so hard though.

ThePizza OP November 25th, 2019

Been feeling pretty cloudy the past couple of days. Wrenched out of the present, almost. Well-- wrenched out of something. I don't know what. Echoes

Also been stuck on things recently

I feel like I have a lot to say but nothing is coming to the surface

ThePizza OP November 25th, 2019

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ThePizza OP November 26th, 2019

@mytwistedsoul @NoneTheWiser @admaiorasemper

Youre in my thoughts (the good ones heart)

Ive been stumbling across the randomest of songs lately— another one from a musical/play?

Let It Out from TGWDLM (look up the synopsis, I found it interesting)

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November 30th, 2019

You are in mine too @ThePizza and I am sorry to hear you have been feeling constantly sad lately...

I am sharing with you a song that I find so painfully beautiful heart

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ThePizza OP November 27th, 2019

Yeesh they

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mytwistedsoul November 27th, 2019

@ThePizza Funny you should say that M - I was thinking the same thing.

How are you?

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CuriousHippo November 27th, 2019

Welp

I'm stuck in a sad, dead end job, and my "friends" who repeatedly tell me they're there for me don't have time, unless they need me to do something for them. I'm fat and no amount of working out has remedied that. The last time I had a date, she exclaimed "Ew are you kidding" and left. I don't even have the energy to end it.

ThePizza OP November 28th, 2019

Is it gaslighting? I don

ThePizza OP November 28th, 2019

She always has to get the last word doesnt she? They all do.

DONT TOUCH ME

In a society where its considered the norm— expected— how do I tell them this without being violated?

only one person and he isnt here

most of the time he is but not in this way

i miss him