Romans Ranting Room
So idrk how to explain feelings n stuff well it usully just comes out as anger tbh 😕
anyway i dont feel like im in a very good place in my head just now. Im just not a good person tbh. Im to stupid to do stuff right in school n im always failing or gettin in trouble. I dont realy have friends at school anymore exept 1 friend. Idk how to talk to ppl good 😕.
Home life should be good but i always mess evrythin up with my moods n bein a brat. Iv been in foster care all my life cos even my parents didnt want me. Thats affecting me a lot rn for some reason idrk why. Anyway now im just burden to foster carers n social work n my care manager, they wouldnt have to deal with my bs if i just hadnt been born. Nobody would have to deal with moods or my tempers n i wish evry1 irl would just leave me alone before i just drag evry1 down with me. 🙁
Im gona leave cups
@DarkerPlaces no please dont, we just talked ab this, pls romey, we all want u here
Ppl dont want me here
@DarkerPlaces I want you here.
No yall dont
@DarkerPlaces I want you here.
Rome did you know I think about you every day? Because you’re my friend. And I’m not a good friend and almost never know how to help anyone. But you’ve helped me before and you mean a lot to me even though we don’t talk all the time anymore. :') i do want you here…. it really kills me to see you get hurt and then get punished here for getting hurt. It’s absolutely stupid and it’s not fair.
*** cups
@DarkerPlaces hey, pls lets talk, im sry u got hate
No *** cups they can get to *** after this soz bye
@DarkerPlaces hey, he's just one person, all of us want u here, i rly hope u change ur mind romey, ur my bestfriend
Well mod muted me so *** cups
@DarkerPlaces I'm sorry romey, I really wanna talk to u, I hope ur ok now
@DarkerPlaces
I dont get why im muted when i dint do nothin
@DarkerPlaces romey omg i was worried ab u
Im still muted cant post in groups anymore
I dint even do anything
@DarkerPlaces i agree. you really didn’t. it’s stupid they muted you.
@DarkerPlaces i know, im sorry
This sorta thing happens all time tho like ppl just hate me
we don't hate you 🥺
Its same at school i always get the blame
@DarkerPlaces :( you don’t deserve that. *hugs if okay*
Hugs
@DarkerPlaces *hugs* im glad u didn’t leave… ik that sounds clingy and selfish but i would have missed u a lot
im still upset about it all cos i didnt start conflict it was him
@DarkerPlaces yeah exactly… i'm upset about it too tbh. it really wasn't fair honestly… muting the people who got hurt, clearing the chat, and telling everybody to “move on” start talking about light hearted stuff, that doesn’t get rid of the damage or any of the conflict. it ain’t fair how they handle it
Exactly 🙁 its so messed up
@DarkerPlaces it really is… :') ugh. i hope you get unmuted soon but you shouldn’t have gotten muted in the first place 🙄
I have to wait 24 hours n its only been around 8 hours so far 🙁
@DarkerPlaces 16 hours to go… i might poof randomly friend, sorry. it 4 am here and sun gonna come up in a while
it must be 2 or 3 am there… i hope you'll be able to get some rest somehow rome buddy 💜 *hugs*
Yeah 2am rn hugs
@DarkerPlaces guess who has ortho tomorrow… in the evening. 🙄
Oh noo hope it gos ok i hate ortho fr hugs
@DarkerPlaces yeah. it's okay my orthodontist is nice… it will be okie. thanks for the hugs friend 💜
Soz for bein so angry earler on
@DarkerPlaces hey no 💜 it's ok to feel angry. what happened was definitely unfair, i don’t have any doubt about that :') anger is a completely valid emotion to have when stuff like that happens. especially since this place is supposed to be safe and then they do this kind of stuff…
*hugs* me and dija were just worried about you… ik what happened must have been kinda triggering :') i'm sorry.
bruh. i was trying to take a picture of the sunrise… and walked back along the edge of the couch and almost fell off. lmao. 😭
i think i might go to bed… :') i haven't gotten a wink of sleep.
Its ok thx for bein here for me
@DarkerPlaces 💜
@DarkerPlaces i think i'm going to go now friend 💜 i'll try to come on later in the morning (it's already morning here 💀) bye bye rome-meow 🐾 try to be safe, okie… i need to catch up on sleep. 🤪
Tc ni hope u get good rest
@DarkerPlaces im sorry romey, hopefully u get umuted soon, im really sad ab it too
I have to wait 24 hours
@DarkerPlaces :(
@DarkerPlaces other than eing frutrated, ho are you? are you still sick??
Still a bit fevery but i feel better than yesterday thx
@DarkerPlaces im glad ur better <3
Hru? Im soz about earler
@DarkerPlaces nothing to be sorry for, im not that good but i will be
I acted like a total *** earler when u were tellin me about today 😞
@DarkerPlaces no u didn't i understand u were overwhelmed, its ok, ur awesome for eing here form me the rest of the day
@DarkerPlaces i have therapy tomorrow morning btw
I hope therapy gos well n helps iv never hd therapy before
@DarkerPlaces thanks romey, therapy's alright in general, i dont hat e it
how often do u go
@DarkerPlaces once a week
@DarkerPlaces Ima go to sleep now, gn romey, i hope ur ok
Ok tc gn hope u sleep well
@DarkerPlaces hiiii, hru? i hope ur ok
i just got back from therapy, it was okayish
sending hugs
@DarkerPlaces how much time left until the 24hrs are over?
Around 3 hours left now how was therapy?
@DarkerPlaces im glad its just 3 hrs
it was alr, she said my depression was more severe than she thought and she cand diagnose me with bpd unless im 18
Oh that sucks about therapy i hope they can help with depression tho cos depression real sucks fr
@DarkerPlaces thx romey
@DarkerPlaces im gonna cry idk what to do, TW----my mom keeps screaming cuz she's in pain and my dad is crying and they told me to stay in my room and idk what to do, i triggered someone in sr and now i feel really guilty. im having a panic attack, everything sucks rome.
Hey soz whats happend? Im soz about ur mum i real hope evrythings ok hugs what happend in sr r u ok?
@DarkerPlaces TW -----she fell, and now she's screaming, and my dad started crying told me to stay in my room, im real overwhelmed, hope ur ok tho
i told some1 ab it in sr and they got triggered and now i feel guilty, i wasnt thinking straight should've added a tw
Aw dw u were overwhelmed n its easy to forget tw dont feel bad n im sorry i hope ur mums ok n evrything
@DarkerPlaces thx rome, hru? u ok?
@DarkerPlaces im tryna distract myself rn so im in tcr and also painting, i hope ur not sick anymore
I feel a lot better now tbh just a bit tired but im fine now n il b unmuted in about a hour so il be in tcr then
@DarkerPlaces that's great im glad ur better now
Yeah im ok thx just hope ur ok
@DarkerPlaces hey romey, i wanted to check up on u, are u alr?
Hey thx yeah im fine just cups feels weird idk
@DarkerPlaces yeah, i get it :(
@DarkerPlaces
rome buddy…? empty bio…..? Did something happen :(
i'm a little worried about u.
Why
@DarkerPlaces why what buddy? *sits with you*
@DarkerPlaces what's up rome?
The more im on cups latley the more i relise its just same as irl n aint acc got freinds here ether
@DarkerPlaces romey, u know im ur friend, i just try not to overwhelm u and respect ur personal space, but im ur friend and i care ab u lots
@DarkerPlaces no pressure to read/respond.
this place certainly does feel a lot like irl at times. we are dealing with/talking to real people after all. these are just screens we look at and words we read but people irl are behind them 💜
i'm sorry it feels like you don’t have any friends here rome. i do see you as a friend of mine and like a brother at times, but i understand it may not always be the same for you. 💜 *sending a hug if okay*
hope i didn’t overstep or anything 💜 this is supposed to be your safe corner.