Pieces of the Jigsaw

You knew it but you never said it. I felt it but I didn't want it to end. I wish you we stayed for a couple of minutes to figure out what's right and what's wrong, maybe it could have changed us, maybe it could have given us a different perspective. I'm sorry for that day, I could have changed it, I could have stopped it from happening, I could have kept quiet but I didn't and here I am now doing it all again

I know that I am a disappointment. No matter how much I try, I know that I am going to end up ruining things for myself. I just don't know how to improve. I end up doing the same thing again and again even after realizing my mistake. I am just so used to being this bad person that every time I try to do something good, it just ends up being even worse, I am a really big failure (っ╥╯﹏╰╥c)



I just want it to end and never start the same way again

Past few days have been very rough and I have been trying to keep up with most of things but I'm just losing control over myself and it's getting more and more difficult everyday. I have so much guilt and I can't even stop apologizing I really don't know what's wrong with me and why I am like this. I am so so sorry for everything, I can't, I am jut a loser. I am so sorry.

One mistake and I can already see everything falling apart. Why do I keep doing these mistakes? Why do I always mess things up? I don't know why I am like this. It's so hard to see it breaking, it's so hard to feel it breaking and I am sitting clueless here rather than saving it. I never saw it coming and I don't know how I'm supposed to save it. I just don't know but I need to do something. I can't let it go. I just can't it's so damn scary to be here. It's suffocating it's just everything at once, I am so sorry I can't be a good person, I am really sorry for causing everything, I don't want it to happen but it always does. I don't know where to go and what to do, I'm so clueless