Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey you π I see you π You've been in my thoughts and I haven't been the best at visiting lately π I just wanted to drop off some hugs and some love - in case maybe you needed someΒ
@mytwistedsoul πππ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@mytwistedsoul πππ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii ππ₯§ , this kitty asks is your birthday on Nov 6? \(^-^)/
@VictoriaLove7 yeah friend <3Β
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yayyie!! I'll remember that, Nii ππ₯§π€
@LoveMyMoonflowers I had a feeling all day today that I was forgetting something. Couldn't quite put my finger on what it was. And then I saw something and I literally facepalmed myself! It's your birthday! Happy Birthday Moon Pie! *hugs you tight* π I hope you have a little fun - some laughs and lots of cake and ice cream! Maybe some nice presents? If you could wish for one special thing for yourself - what would it be? *shhhh don't say it out loud or they say it won't come true* Idk if that's true or not but it's better to be safe than sorry right? π Happy Happy Birthday Moon Pie! May all your wishes come true! πππ
@mytwistedsoul *hugs soul* π
@LoveMyMoonflowers youre amazing omg hold onΒ
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happy birthdayyyyyy imsoproudofyou thank you so much for like everything for helping me when i freaked out and telling me stuff about OSDD and the likes and dealing with my weird self and being super fun and cheese master and for the times when u wld poof or take breaks thank you for coming back and im sorry if we feel distant or anything bcz i try not to be clingy and i love you and be safe and happy birthday π«Άπ»π«Άπ»
(Id have written more but i didnt want to bother you if you want more im happy to oblige!)
@unassumingEyes *hugs eyes* π I missed you friend.
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs* i can always feel your hugs π©· missed you too π©·
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Happiest birthday, Nii! ππ₯§π₯³
Me hopes Nii ππ₯§ is having a wonderful birthday celebration today and may your dreams come true! Β°Κ(*Β΄κ³`*)ΙΒ°
Rainbow bear has something for you! \(^-^)/
https://www.7cups.com/forum/gratitude/CupversariesBirthdays_179/HappyBirthdayNii_339912/
ΰΈ ^>β©<^ΰΈ
@VictoriaLove7 *hugs rainbow bear* π
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugss Nii ππ₯§π€ππ§Έ*
Me hopes Nii ππ₯§ is being kind to Niiself & nom nom (γ£ΛΪ‘ΛΟ) Nii's ππ₯§ favorite food on your special day \(^-^)/ *
@VictoriaLove7 @unassumingEyes @mytwistedsoul
i might say something again later (it's not likely because i usually never reply if i use that terrible word βlaterβ π₯²) π but yeah idrk what to say right now. thanks guys. π *big hugs*
@LoveMyMoonflowers That's ok Moon Pie. There's never any pressure to reply π
@VictoriaLove7 you said the magic word! Fries π π
@mytwistedsoul
*me bring more fries ππ\(^-^)/πππππ₯§ let's nom nom (γ£ΛΪ‘ΛπΟ)*
@VictoriaLove7 Yum! Thank you! π
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*π«π₯Ίππ₯§ππ§Έ big hugs Nii ππ₯§*
And *brings fries π & shares with Nii ππ₯§, Eyes π,Β & Soul π*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *biggest softest hugs* thats okay we love you <3
@lovemymoonflowersΒ
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou sunnnnnnnnnnniiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeee sunnnnnn sunnnnnnnnnnnnnnn I miss you friendΒ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Aw you're in my thoughts too, Niibuddyyy.π
I remember our year end conversations hehe, so thinking of you extra much during this last month of the year. (Last already?!?!π₯²)
How's youuu?π€
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii ππ₯§\(^-^)/ how are you?
These kittiesΒ ΰΈ ^β’β©β’^ΰΈ want to show their dancing skill to Nii ππ₯§
@VictoriaLove7 miss you rainbow bearie β€οΈ idk i'm ok kinda not good but ok. lol sorry. that doesn't make sense. How's you? how you been? i like the second gif, the kitties are cute. β€οΈ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs Nii ππ₯§π€π₯Ί if okie*Β
Rainbow π bearie π§Έ is inΒ surviving mode, & me kinda stop trying to make my life better because everything I do doesn't work, I'm still in the same situation as I was 5 years agoΒ (ΛΜ£Μ£Μ₯α΄ΛΜ£Μ£Μ₯)
@LoveMyMoonflowers @VictoriaLove7Β *sits with you both*
@VictoriaLove7Β Maybe we can talk about it here together? Maybe it would help? I'm sorry to hear you're stuck in a situation and I don't know the details and maybe I don't need to know them but you have friends here. You are such a sweet and caring person to so many people here. It hurts to know that you're hurting. Can we help in any way?
@mytwistedsoul
I don't know Soul ππ₯Ί maybe if in case I am slow in replying in forum or in pm s with anyone or I seems unenthusiastic π₯Ί,Β I hope that I did not & that I do not hurt anyone's feelings here, because I am dealing with my situation irl, it is hard to do even simple things because I have no energy or motivation. I force myself to have the energy to do some obligations especially for my dad. I barely have time for myself, or to think of how to change my situation. From the time I wake up I get to take my dad to his doctor's appointment, it would take several hours for the appointment, and then when I got home I have to do chores, then think of my dad's next week schedule, make appointments for him. By the time I finish doing those things it's either already at night or I'm too tired mentally to even search for jobs or think of my dreams because if I leave my dad he would be by himself he is not able to live by himself properly, he can't even hear in normal volume voice but refuse to use hearing aid. He literally cannot communicate with others unless the other person is shouting loudly or speak to his ears.π
I have to pretend I'm ok irl, because I cannot rely on people irl. My irl situation has affected my cups life π₯Ί
@VictoriaLove7 Oh no no! I should have used different wording. I'm sorry I said it the way I did. You haven't hurt anyone's feelings. I just meant that I feel for you - for you being stuck in a situation that has you in survival mode π
It sounds really hard to have to deal with all that with your dad and to have to put your life and all your dreams on hold. Are there any resources that could help? A council of aging or an occasional care giver that could give you an occasional break?Β And to have to carry it all on your own because you have no one you can rely on. That would be hardΒ
@mytwistedsoul
It was not because of what you said, Soul ππ€ I have wanted to tell people of Cups if in case my slow response or unenthusiastic response is because I'm depressed because of my situation probably π₯ΊΒ
Thank you for your suggestions, Soul ππ₯Ί things are kinda different where I live, and even if that's possible, my dad wouldn't want to be put in a nursing home or things like that, he want to do things his way, even when he's not able to π₯Ί
I need a miracle to change my life situation because I have done my part with limited choices available for me to choose, and none works. So, I need a miracle π₯Ί
@VictoriaLove7 I understand π I know where I live we have an organization called Visiting Angels and they come to people homes to help with older folks. They just help with things that might need to be done and it gives their family a little bit of a break. But I can understand that where you live might not have options like that. It's a lot of responsibility on your shoulders π₯Ί
I don't want you to feel obligated to answer either. I just wanted you to know that I care about you and if there's ever anything you need that I can do for you - I'm here ok? π
@mytwistedsoul
I will remember that. Thank you, Soul ππ₯Ί(Λ ΛΜ£Μ£Μ₯βΛΜ£Μ£Μ₯ )
@VictoriaLove7 *offers safe hugs* You're very welcome π We'll all send you some good vibes and thoughts to give you a little hope that things will get better for you π
@VictoriaLove7 @mytwistedsoul i will reply to this soon when i canΒ
@mytwistedsoul @victorialove7Β
I'm sorry guys, i'm just being a little drmatic right now and i just need to calm down.Β
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@LoveMyMoonflowers Nothing to be sorry for. Maybe some grounding? π
@mytwistedsoul itβs shaky i canβt do it properlyΒ
@LoveMyMoonflowers How about
There's no pressure ok? It's ok to take your time π
@mytwistedsoul Ok
see- chair, hands, ipad, desk, bottleΒ
touch- ipad, chair, desk, wire
hear- mom dad talking, my breathing
smell- idk nothing
taste- Nothing
wait i can smell the armchairΒ
@LoveMyMoonflowers You did good! Do I want to know what the armchair smells like? π
I usually keep something minty handy. A piece of peppermint candy. A candy cane or something
@mytwistedsoul It smells nice but i donβt like the colour much
Yeah
I think Iβm ok now iβm breathing fine
@LoveMyMoonflowers Sounds like a nice chair! Is it cloth or leather? What color is it? For some reason maroon is coming to mind for me lol
@mytwistedsoul Itβs cloth
For some reason when i try to put the picture here it shows up backwards and upside down I think. Or sideways because the curtain is at the side⦠*Confused*
yeah no definitely sidewaysΒ
@LoveMyMoonflowers My phone does that if I take a picture the normal way. But it I turn my phone sideways it posts it the right way? Idk it's a little weird tbh. The colors not that bad but the flowers? are kind of eh?Β π¬ π
@mytwistedsoul Thatβs weird
Frrrr π We might get a new cover thing for it because I think it's a coverΒ
@LoveMyMoonflowers Let's all cross our fingers for that lol π
What would beΒ the color you would choose?
@mytwistedsoul Lmao. No idea. Maybe a single colour. No flowers or anything
I just realised I haven't had my retainer on for a few hours π
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm all in favor of solid colors. It gets weird when there's patterns and flowers or a combination of colors. It looks too busyΒ
I'm guessing not having it in for a while isn't a good thing?Β
@mytwistedsoul Yeah i agree lol
Hmm kinda. They start to shift back, but itβs not bad unless you donβt wear them for a few days or a week. If you donβt wear it for a day itβs fine, but it will hurt when you put it back on because the teeth shift back into place (itβs freaky ik)
@LoveMyMoonflowers Do they ever stop trying to go back to where they were? Or is it just for a little bit that they do that? I mean it's probably worth it to have nice straight teeth?Β
@mytwistedsoul Depends. on the age of the patient, the orthodontist and the treatment, cause itβs slightly different in different places. but usually with teens you have to wear them for a few months full-time (except when brushing/flossing, cleaning the retainer and eating) and then you switch to wearing them every night for a few years. And then you may or may not need them anymore but again that depends on the ortho. I think for adults they usually have to wear them every night for the rest of their life
@LoveMyMoonflowers The rest of their lives? π³ Omg that would really suck π
@mytwistedsoul yeah lol itβs just at night though and Iβve heard itβs not too bad.Β
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i know what you feel, I probably do, Nii π₯Ίππ₯§
@VictoriaLove7 Hugs iβm sorry rainbow bear itβs not fun
iβm sick in my headΒ
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